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I like the sound of crickets during the summer,
when the sun is going down.
I like the taste of my grandma's peanut butter cookies,
sitting in her kitchen.
I like how when its dark outside, and I have lights on inside, there's a reflection on the window,
instead of seeing whats really outside.
I like the fuzzy feeling inside of anticipation when there's that temptation of kissing someone or just
holding their hand.
I should be doing something productive right now. But i just spent the last few hours doing that. I should fill out this application to meijer. Mom mentioned something about Kroger over on Plymoth with openings for every position. But that is really far. I wouldn't like doing that too often. But I would get money. I really just don't want to get a job.
I wonder if my mom might end up having to have surgery. Thats kinda a weird thought. I can't remember the last time she was in the hospital, especially any time where she was there for something that might be serious. What a weird thought, having your mom die. I'd probably be more worried about having to move back to Illinois. God, I would hate that. As much as I used to hate living here, and hate this house, and not living near anyone I know, thats all gone now. Sure I dont have the best relationship with my mom, possibly due to her making my brother and I move up here, but I love my friends. I love my bedroom. I don't have much of a problem with the school. Its home here.
Everything has changed down there. No more grandparents house. No more Mansfield. Now its a stupid apartment (which I actually think is a nice apartment, its just that its not what I miss when I'm not there) and living 20 miles from where I'd normally go. I just wish I could make everything go back to the way it was in 4th grade for instance. I had a home. I had parents. I had grandparents. I had school. I had little league. I had my best friend. All in a few block radius. Sure, I thought life was boring, but it was home. I just figured that I'd grow up there. Graduate from there. Have my parents together forever. Live somewhere near there. How naive was that?