long dumb entry

[takingback123]

i dont know whats going on anymore.....i havent been doing any of my homework.. i have these random bursts of crying..i just feel numb.....and i dont want people to comment and have all this sympathy for me. thats not what im looking for. i just want to get this shit out. it seems like everyday is the exact same..never any change at all...and i just walk through the halls at school and occasionally wave to a friend...but otherwise it seems like im just wandering around aimlessly..sitting in a classroom for a while then getting up and moving on to the next...every fucking day...i duno its getting old.......everything is getting old......but then again...i am afraid of change...like it seems like stuff has changed between me and sam and i just dont know what to do...i want everything to go back to how it was....and id give anything for that...it just seems like he has no interest at all or something. but i never get to see him anymore cause new schedules and all. fuck i miss that kid more than anything.blaaaaaaaah im done being annoying now. bye everyone.

i fucking love sam..............

karina