"Iced Reality"

[takey_need_help]

 Title: Iced Reality
Author: takey_need_help
Comment: Wow I wrote this one in January O.O I wonder why I never posted it....?

Iced Reality

How come everyone’s a stranger?
Even you, someone whom I’ve known for several years…
It seems like I’m new to you
Although I do know you,
I cannot find it in me to trust you.

Just poor salt into my wounds.
It’s not like I can’t feel the pain.
The raw wounds make up this heart,
Which was doomed from the start.
Wishing that people wont be blind is too big a wish.
But why must you be one of them?

Is it too late?
Can my wounds ever heal?
Just leaving scars of the past…
Making me remember the pain
The pain caused by those closest to me,
And that includes you…

Why must I love you?
Why can’t I move on?
Move on to a darker future…
Where everyone can feed the pain;
To share your meaningless job.

I cant say goodbye to myself.
I cant help everyone and cease to exist.
The fear covers up my will
And I allow myself to slowly die inside.

Allow my tears to freeze;
Allow time to freeze.
Give me the time I need to think;
To try to plan happiness
Instead of robbing me of it.
And you say your going to help people?
You can’t even help me.

Over time Ive learned that our wishes are just
Wasted seconds of our lives.
It gets us nowhere.
When will we move forward?
When will we open our eyes?

Every time I can get close to an answer,
The ice has melted,
And reality has set in.
After so many years, I think I’ve finally given up.
Go ahead, be dissapointed.
I know I have been for many years.

Why these conflicts?
Why indecision?
My thoughts cause insomnia.
Blissful sleep; dead and gone.
I’ve had to resort to tears to be my lullaby.

I can’t say goodbye to myself,
But somehow you can…