Fuck the title, just fuck it.
"The hand of my clock strikes two
In times when I got the best of you
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life
Where I, did something right."
"These words, fall from your mouth,
and stab me in the back
It should have never come to this
Its too late, for your apologies
They can't bring back all that you've taken from me"
Yea,
Looks like all good things must come to an end. I havent been able to talk to Gina for atleast a week, my comp got all fucked up. Didnt think much of it, I still emailed her from my sisters comp, and she still kept in contact, infact she emailed me monday night saying how she missed me so, how it was so terrible not talking. Now, now I talked to her tonight at our normal time, and after an hour of debating, she tells me Im single? She doesnt even know if she still wants me over there in July.. WTF? Im more irritated right now more than anything, I know there is somthing she wont tell me. Im so fucking pist off right now. She wants to just throw away everything? Ok, so she doesnt, but what the hell is there for her to think about? What the hell happened? God Mother fuck, Im so pissed. Can someone please explain this to me? GOD FUCK SHIT.
"Lye in bed, give me somthing worth living foir, tell me a reason worth fighting for, give me anything, anything to keep me breathing."
Im so fucking confused right now. I thought it was different this time, I knew this wouldnt probly last forever, which is what I wanted and still do more than anything, but i never expected to end this soon. Sure ur probly saying she told u she is going to take tomorrow to think, and u two will talk tomorrow. You werent there, you didnt see the things she said, I didnt get anything i used to, I didnt get but one I love you, not one I missed u, nothing. Fucking shit, I should of known better, she is too young, too young to accually make somthing like this work. I dont regret this, never will. I think Im going to be ok thou, guys, when u read this, I need, NEED to get drunk this weekend, sure drinking isnt going to solve anything, thats what everyone says, But for me it does. I need this guys.
Im fucking out.
Remember one thing, always.
"Nothing is what is seems."
Those, WILL be the words I live by for the rest of my life, not only that, but I will die by them.