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you can say the words over and over again and they can never have a meaning.
then when you least expect it, you think about it and realize that it's all true.
i guess i've changed to the point beyond repair. i'm not myself anymore.
i've become someone i said i never would be. and i hate that people think that.
i've grown up some over the past few years, or so i thought.
but aparently that isn't what it's called.
it's called changing and pushing people away.
this is the toughest thing i've dealt with since cait left.
i dont know what to do.
and there is no excuse. there really isn't.
i just don't like having to push myself to hang out with people and i dont like the fact that what i've always said has come true. yet it isn't what anyone wants. things are so different now.
there, i said it. and it didnt have a real meaning until tonight.
this sucks.
work. school. friends. boyfriends. learning to deal with everything all at once.
sometimes it's too much.
but there has to be a balance between everything. there has to be.
i just don't know if i'm ready to balance this all out.
<3 Molly.
then when you least expect it, you think about it and realize that it's all true.
i guess i've changed to the point beyond repair. i'm not myself anymore.
i've become someone i said i never would be. and i hate that people think that.
i've grown up some over the past few years, or so i thought.
but aparently that isn't what it's called.
it's called changing and pushing people away.
this is the toughest thing i've dealt with since cait left.
i dont know what to do.
and there is no excuse. there really isn't.
i just don't like having to push myself to hang out with people and i dont like the fact that what i've always said has come true. yet it isn't what anyone wants. things are so different now.
there, i said it. and it didnt have a real meaning until tonight.
this sucks.
work. school. friends. boyfriends. learning to deal with everything all at once.
sometimes it's too much.
but there has to be a balance between everything. there has to be.
i just don't know if i'm ready to balance this all out.
<3 Molly.