*Blah*
Spending most of my teenage years blaming myself for things that happened to me, i wasted myself to the bone. Spending countless nights alone in my room wondering if i did deserve to be hurt in such a way. I never told anyone, i never let it out and i never accepted that i was innocent but now i see that it's not true, now i see that i didn't deserve it.
I was on the verge of self destruction and i managed to realise that i was not to blame before i destroyed myself with guilt that had no place belonging to me.
People always seem to blame themselves for incidents that is no-way their fault, it's only human nature after all to see the worst in yourself. I just wish that they wouldsee that not everything is their fault. sometimes (most of the time) being on the recieving end of acts of violence or abuse or taunting isn't your fault... it's the people who do these things for whatever reason they seem to need.
Songs for situations
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Write in the Band you like to hear while...
1. Relaxing : HIM
2. Partying : Alexisonfire
3. Getting high : Bob Marley
4. Having Sex : Umm.. i don't really know about that one... *shrugs*
5. Making Love : Only Really 1 song... Witho Or Without You by U2
6. Fucking : Peaches
7. Depressed : Evanescence
8. Happy : Alexisonfire
9. In Love : REM
10. Driving Fast : Alexisonfire or Story Of The Year
11. Crusing : Anything with strong Bass... The Mad Capsule Markets
12. Trying To Sleep : This sounds wierd but Slipknot make me sleep well
Tickets
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Calum, Jordan, Dale or whoever reads this (if anyone)
Can you save me two tickets for tomorrow night and i'll get them from you guys outside the gig or in central or where ever tomorrow. I'm bringing Lesleyanne again
Cya later
Yeah well... i really can't be bothered tonight, too tired.
Later Ya'll...