Fucking brilliant
I know it has been a really long time since I've updated this thing with anything of any importance. But today while I'm sitting here in my sister's apartment alone, I have no one to talk to.
I've never felt this way about someone before and I just know that no one could understand it. I have finally found someone who I can actually see myself with. After being so patient, not just dating any old bum from Kona I'm getting screwed over.
Why is it that men feel they have the right to fuck with every girl? Is it because girls like me allow them to? They lead you on to the point of giving you actual hope for something more, then they leave you hanging. Waiting for them. Crying over them. Hating them while hating yourself for believing the bullshit they said. I can't stand it. I avoid shit like this like the plague. I never ever in my life have put up wth this kind of stuff and I hate to start now. Unfortunatly, there isnt a whole lot I can do. Time is my enemy.
Fuck it all. Fuck him and fuck me for falling for him. I hope he loses. Either that or has a really fucking brilliant reason as to why I was left waiting here.
Lana