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It's amazing how boring life can be, isn't it?
Watched I Heart Huckabees today. Very dumb movie, but still entertaining. Jude Law is so uber-fuckable it made up for it, and Jason Schwartzman is just hilarious. Marky Mark was in it, haha, he played this psycho fireman. Good times.
Worked today, closed. Got home, and my uncles and family are still playing poker in the dining room. I've been kicked out of my bedroom, and was fearing having to change in my brother's room, but they were all absent from my humble abode. We have 6 dogs in our house as we speak - Three chihuahuas, one chicken shepherd, a border collie, and one tenacious maltese. I love dogs ^_^
School is sucky. I feel lonely all the time. I have too much work to do, and not enough time to do it. I'm lazy, so that compounds the stress of things. Even so, I don't care anymore really, so if it doesn't get done, or is lamely finished, then oh well. It's great sitting in a full class with no one to talk to *sigh*. It's not that the people are unfriendly, I just feel so inadequate. I have no social skills, I have no self-esteem, it's dwindled sometime ago, and I hadn't noticed until now. Maybe I should up my medication dosage. I haven't been paying much attention to myself and my moods, not as much to know if this is really working or am I just pretending it is. I don't know. I never know anymore. gah
My parents are going out of town next weekend. This is where the wild-child, true hormone crazed teen screams the obligatory "Par-tay!" but it's evident that I am lacking any sense of social tendencies or excitement. I feel antiquated and absurd. I've been listening to the oldies radio station, and have truly enjoyed it. I'm sick of this era, the future, whatever. I just want to, i don't know, embrace the transcendental ideals, and live in a shitty 18th floor apartment with no elevator or hot water and read every god damn book published by anybody noteworthy. I don't want to worry about anything anymore. Just whether or not the roaches will stay out of the apartment while I sleep. *Sigh*
I just need a vacation. A really long vacation. I think I'll take Saturday off and drive to Naples or the Keys for the day. That sounds good.
toodles
Watched I Heart Huckabees today. Very dumb movie, but still entertaining. Jude Law is so uber-fuckable it made up for it, and Jason Schwartzman is just hilarious. Marky Mark was in it, haha, he played this psycho fireman. Good times.
Worked today, closed. Got home, and my uncles and family are still playing poker in the dining room. I've been kicked out of my bedroom, and was fearing having to change in my brother's room, but they were all absent from my humble abode. We have 6 dogs in our house as we speak - Three chihuahuas, one chicken shepherd, a border collie, and one tenacious maltese. I love dogs ^_^
School is sucky. I feel lonely all the time. I have too much work to do, and not enough time to do it. I'm lazy, so that compounds the stress of things. Even so, I don't care anymore really, so if it doesn't get done, or is lamely finished, then oh well. It's great sitting in a full class with no one to talk to *sigh*. It's not that the people are unfriendly, I just feel so inadequate. I have no social skills, I have no self-esteem, it's dwindled sometime ago, and I hadn't noticed until now. Maybe I should up my medication dosage. I haven't been paying much attention to myself and my moods, not as much to know if this is really working or am I just pretending it is. I don't know. I never know anymore. gah
My parents are going out of town next weekend. This is where the wild-child, true hormone crazed teen screams the obligatory "Par-tay!" but it's evident that I am lacking any sense of social tendencies or excitement. I feel antiquated and absurd. I've been listening to the oldies radio station, and have truly enjoyed it. I'm sick of this era, the future, whatever. I just want to, i don't know, embrace the transcendental ideals, and live in a shitty 18th floor apartment with no elevator or hot water and read every god damn book published by anybody noteworthy. I don't want to worry about anything anymore. Just whether or not the roaches will stay out of the apartment while I sleep. *Sigh*
I just need a vacation. A really long vacation. I think I'll take Saturday off and drive to Naples or the Keys for the day. That sounds good.
toodles