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I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with Jim Carrey, and it reminded me of you so much. So silly, reserved, and shy around me, so absolutely clueless about how to react to any of the stupid things I do. When I think of you, I think of myself exactly like Kate Winslet in the movie, so happy and perky one second, and then accusing you of hating me the next. You obviously have qualms about me, understandably. You have a past down here that you hate to remember, just like you hate to let anything else new that is probably likely to hurt you to happen. I judge you so much. I think I know you but I don't. I love you, but I have no idea why. You are just this sublime thing that is just so amazing that I will never grasp, and it hurts me so much. I miss you. I stayed up the other night dreaming of driving all the way up there to see you. I cried. I'm crying now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just miss you. And I wish you would understand. I don't even understand. I'm sorry I wrote this. I'm sorry I actually went through with posting this. I just wanted to tell you something. I wanted to let you know. But now, I don't even know what it is. I just don't know . .

I'm sorry. Forget me, please. You wanted to before, and now I'm actually giving you the chance.

Good-bye.