im losing track of things to quickly

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i have a sneaky suscpicion this year is going to suck.im just becoming fet up with a lot of things and its making me sick to the point of getting sharp pains in my stomach.maybe its because im just not being honest or because i need a doctor, but regardless i know they are joined somehow.i mean ya, i can talk to my friends, well some, but it still doesnt help because when it comes down to it, when im alone and there is no one to talk to im screwed.who am i supposed to talk to at 330 in the morning because i cant sleep and i end up staring at my ceiling for 2 hours? im not bothering anyone that late, its not fair. it blows that i can have the most amazing time with my friends and then when i get by myself...there goes my mind.

&i need help with my literary fair entry, im only allowed 261 more words and i cant even figure out an ending because the ending i intended upon a month ago is shot to hell because of whats going on.its shitty anyway,im probably not even going to turn it in.

.i need to be in the tent.