i didn't ask to be born.

[takemythroat]

repetition... repeater.
everyday i wake up wishing it wasn't today.
and if tomorrow never comes, it will always stay that way.
fuck sleeping.
everything i once loved, i touched.
who can say the same for themselves?
a.l.m.o.n.d.s.h.a.p.e.d
i dont think that will ever change..
not for california.
not for kentucky.
not for 20 minutes away..

you may never be here.
but you're always right there.

a click away.
a blink from being perfect.
pardon the glitter.

fuck it.
i know what i want, lin.

let's grow up a little.

i know that i don't mean much in the larger aspects of this world.
but i want to make someone happy while im here.
because relatively soon.. im going to die.
maybe 20 years, maybe tomorrow.. if it ever comes..

some call it a gift. some hate it.
but it's all the same.. to all of us.
and it always will be.

i love her.