ahhhh...
ever have a day that just made you think about how nothings going right in your life? well ya thats how today was.. i dont even know why but i woke up today and a down mood and things just went downhill from there.. i went to school hoping for a callback list for the girls.. well that didnt happen. then im like okay i have a driving hour at 3 which is gona suck but oh well.. and i go to woods and hey cool they changed my hour to 6? wtf.. and i dno im just so frustrated with myself.. i feel like i have nothing right now and i know i have so much its just my messed up little head is seeing nothing and its making me wicked like pissed off/depressed.. i wish i had something happy i could really hold on to.. and on top of all this causing my emotions to go nuts, im starting to like someone who is totally awesome and i dont know what to do about it because i dont know if he even remotely sees me that way.. ahh i dont know.. im a mess.. lata..