This is the most depressing thing I will ever write..
I have a very big problem. It is my senior year, and I have never hated high school so much. This is supposed to be the best year of my life. But instead I have just been hating myself more and more as the days go on. I'm realizing so much about myself that it's making me completely miserable. I feel like such a loser, I don't talk to hardly anybody because I'm so damn quiet,whenever somebody tries talking to me I still can't hardly say anything, and worst of all.. I feel like I've lost every last friend I ever had. That hurts more than anything in the world. And the only person I have to blame for that is myself. I've never actually felt like I hated myself so much, and I want to change that more than anything, but I can't do that until I feel ok about myself again. I don't know what to do. And half the time I feel like I'm even going to lose Pat. I barely get to see him, and whenever I do, I'm feeling like shit about myself..which isn't fair to him. I love you Pat, and I don't want to lose you. And I miss all of my frinds soo bad right now. I'm really sorry. I just wish things were different, and I wasn't so depressed. I hate this so much...