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Hallo~
So last night i went to Mr. Camas, that was fun cuz i love the jordans and kaylee and rachel and marshmallow. we went to top burger afterwords where we stole french fries from the table behind us. good times. james left this morning for a whole week, i miss him already, sad. I have nothing to do today, which is lame because when i go back to my dad's house tomorrow i will be grounded for a month because he is fucking dumb and i hate him. I don't even know why i am writing in this, nobody reads it. Whateva. I have decided that i really need to get my grades up, i used to be such a good kid. what happened to me? i think i'm just lazy, oh yeah, and really really really bad at math, that too. Beginning of semester 2 and what do i have? One big fatC-! Story of my life. God, i hate my dad so much, he just wants to be in controll of everything and everybody. The only way he is happy is if he is making everyone else feel like shit by making up some bullshit story about how he has been wronged in some way. I guess it could be worse, there are people with bigger problems out there. I was thinking last night about how much i had changed over the years. not that anybody cares, but i was just thinking about how every year i think that i am a lot different, but i really not. and every year, i go back to school hating who i was last year, and i think i am making a change for the better, but really i am exactly the same. just with different friends. i still do the same stupid things, and i still keep the same habbits that i told my self i would break. more than anything i wish i was someone else, someone with a stronger bit of self confidence, who could break simple habbits that are really hard for me to do. or someone who could figure out how to make my dad happy. or someone who in general is just a better person. that dosen't even make any sence. oh well. it kind of sort of made sence in my own head.
So last night i went to Mr. Camas, that was fun cuz i love the jordans and kaylee and rachel and marshmallow. we went to top burger afterwords where we stole french fries from the table behind us. good times. james left this morning for a whole week, i miss him already, sad. I have nothing to do today, which is lame because when i go back to my dad's house tomorrow i will be grounded for a month because he is fucking dumb and i hate him. I don't even know why i am writing in this, nobody reads it. Whateva. I have decided that i really need to get my grades up, i used to be such a good kid. what happened to me? i think i'm just lazy, oh yeah, and really really really bad at math, that too. Beginning of semester 2 and what do i have? One big fatC-! Story of my life. God, i hate my dad so much, he just wants to be in controll of everything and everybody. The only way he is happy is if he is making everyone else feel like shit by making up some bullshit story about how he has been wronged in some way. I guess it could be worse, there are people with bigger problems out there. I was thinking last night about how much i had changed over the years. not that anybody cares, but i was just thinking about how every year i think that i am a lot different, but i really not. and every year, i go back to school hating who i was last year, and i think i am making a change for the better, but really i am exactly the same. just with different friends. i still do the same stupid things, and i still keep the same habbits that i told my self i would break. more than anything i wish i was someone else, someone with a stronger bit of self confidence, who could break simple habbits that are really hard for me to do. or someone who could figure out how to make my dad happy. or someone who in general is just a better person. that dosen't even make any sence. oh well. it kind of sort of made sence in my own head.