ima goin' crazy...
grrr... i am so frustrated right now. well, i have been all day. today was just a horrible day in all ways possible. im not even going into all the reasons why, but i was so happy for like maybe a month or so, and now these past few days ive been slipping back into how i usually feel, and that is so bad. maybe its because people are acting shadyyyy lately and im tired of always just dealing with it and taking their crap. im also tired of being there for people, and never getting the response i need. im about to go mute so that when i need to talk to someone it wont matter that they cut me off to talk about something horribly stupid and off topic. [this is possibly my biggest pet peeve] i mean, why are there so many jerks? seriously, i think its like a new trend in breeding or something. i am so ready to get out of here. i want to leave cincinnati so freakin' much, its crazy. its not like i hate the city or anything... its just that the people around me are too two faced or they make promises that they just love to break, or make commitments to you and like next day its like.. uhh i hate you, why would i hang out with you......? and its not just me, i see so many people being treated like that and im so tired of it. im sorry, im not in the first grade anymore and neither are my friends and i would like to think that the maturity leval is higher and more closer to the age that we are, but its sad to say that i just dont think that is the case anymore. the worst thing, is that this little journal is the best listener and person i can vent to, nobody else cares anymore. and its not like i come running, i just need a little help sometimes, but i guess this is just what it is. oh dang.
maybe kelly's right. that is such a scary thought.
kate.
[i tell them what i like, what i want, and what i dont -- but everytime i do, i stand corrected.]