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i'm really not happy at school. it's not that the actual place makes me miserable, it's that i'm miserable not being at home. i hate being away, and i hate coming back feeling like i missed so much. i can't stop crying right now because i have to go back soon and i really don't want to. it shouldn't be like this; so many other people are so excited to go back to school, and i dread it everytime. and i don't think i'm gonna see mike this time for almost 4 weeks and it's absolutely KILLING me. and i know that makes me sound pathetic because so many other people go through much longer periods of time, but i just can't. and now spending a week with him is just making it so much harder to go back. i feel like such a baby because i can't stop crying about it, but i would just so much rather stay home. i wish i was going to brookdale and could just be home.