if you want to call me baby, just go ahead now
its been awhile kids.
well, i went to my fathers house on Christmas day. which sucked massive ass.
then i stayed the night there and the next day we went to walmart b/c we had giftcards from the swenson grandparents. after that, my mom came to pick me up and we drove to casper.
look, i had two options: stay in hell for another night, stay in a little better hell for another night(aka daves house) so i took the better choice.
it sucked but you know what, i dealt with it. thats right.
so today we drove home from daves with his two sons(jake-8 and joey-5). they are staying for the entire week.
i just might slit my fucking wrists.
evidently, my mother doesnt know how to explain that you dont come into my room at all. so i guess i'll have to do that myself. i hate being so mean all the time, but i get the job done.
so other than sara coming home and saving me...this week is gonna blow.
im just gonna have to lock myself in my room.
next subject.
i decided to tell kevin that he's gonna come up here for a weekend. if he says he cant, well then obviously im just not worth his time, and if im not worth his time, then hes not worth my time...
yeah right brianna. see how long you stick to that 'rule'
my mom got victoria's secret stuff from dave. NOT OKAY.
that means sex.
mom+sex=angry brianna
unless im not in the house...then go ahead and do the dirty all you want to. just dont let me find out about it.
sorry if i just grossed you all out, but hell, its my journal!
well, other than this...my emotions are strong and i keep starting to cry but i have so many things on my mind that i dont fully cry...i just cry a little then think of something else then go back to thinking about the first thing and cry some more. its quite strange. i miss hearing kevin's voice every night. im halfway through this torture. only 7 more days till he gets home.
he better call.
i miss shilo too. being in casper kills me b/c im only 3 hours from cody and it drives me mad.
but anyway, my lips are chapped and im bored so im gonna go sit in my room and listen to my new stereo..or something.
well, i went to my fathers house on Christmas day. which sucked massive ass.
then i stayed the night there and the next day we went to walmart b/c we had giftcards from the swenson grandparents. after that, my mom came to pick me up and we drove to casper.
look, i had two options: stay in hell for another night, stay in a little better hell for another night(aka daves house) so i took the better choice.
it sucked but you know what, i dealt with it. thats right.
so today we drove home from daves with his two sons(jake-8 and joey-5). they are staying for the entire week.
i just might slit my fucking wrists.
evidently, my mother doesnt know how to explain that you dont come into my room at all. so i guess i'll have to do that myself. i hate being so mean all the time, but i get the job done.
so other than sara coming home and saving me...this week is gonna blow.
im just gonna have to lock myself in my room.
next subject.
i decided to tell kevin that he's gonna come up here for a weekend. if he says he cant, well then obviously im just not worth his time, and if im not worth his time, then hes not worth my time...
yeah right brianna. see how long you stick to that 'rule'
my mom got victoria's secret stuff from dave. NOT OKAY.
that means sex.
mom+sex=angry brianna
unless im not in the house...then go ahead and do the dirty all you want to. just dont let me find out about it.
sorry if i just grossed you all out, but hell, its my journal!
well, other than this...my emotions are strong and i keep starting to cry but i have so many things on my mind that i dont fully cry...i just cry a little then think of something else then go back to thinking about the first thing and cry some more. its quite strange. i miss hearing kevin's voice every night. im halfway through this torture. only 7 more days till he gets home.
he better call.
i miss shilo too. being in casper kills me b/c im only 3 hours from cody and it drives me mad.
but anyway, my lips are chapped and im bored so im gonna go sit in my room and listen to my new stereo..or something.