vent.
You know I work my ass off everyday. I hardly even get days to just hang out or anything. Its already stressful enough that now I have to hear that people are still saying shit about me. Get a fucking life to you fuckers. Im not necessarily going to even do anything about it now even because even though It would make me feel really good at the moment. I dont want to look back and thing I made a bad move. So w/e Im just going to ignore it as usual.
As for guard I dont even know what to think anymore. It youst to be something fun to do that I loved.. But once again theres those tight groups that no matter what your not going to be in. I would like to say that I enjoy doing it and can get by and work hard and get satisfied by doing well.. but at this point I cant. Too much work has ruined it for me. Because even if I try hard, there are going to be the people that still go up and bitch like last year making me feel like shit. If I suggest something god forbid they use it.. If I work hard to get a part god forbid I get it. Its not even fun anymore.. And ashley though outdoor would do that.. but It really didnt. Its the people and Its everything right now going on. I dont know why I cant enjoy it now, but thats just how it is. My life is too complicated now to have to deal with even more stupid problems and people that dont care about me at all.
Things are complicated.Im overwelmed with too much and tired of these lose lose situations. Sometimes it just really feels like Im the only one I have to look out for me.
Thats all.
As for guard I dont even know what to think anymore. It youst to be something fun to do that I loved.. But once again theres those tight groups that no matter what your not going to be in. I would like to say that I enjoy doing it and can get by and work hard and get satisfied by doing well.. but at this point I cant. Too much work has ruined it for me. Because even if I try hard, there are going to be the people that still go up and bitch like last year making me feel like shit. If I suggest something god forbid they use it.. If I work hard to get a part god forbid I get it. Its not even fun anymore.. And ashley though outdoor would do that.. but It really didnt. Its the people and Its everything right now going on. I dont know why I cant enjoy it now, but thats just how it is. My life is too complicated now to have to deal with even more stupid problems and people that dont care about me at all.
Things are complicated.Im overwelmed with too much and tired of these lose lose situations. Sometimes it just really feels like Im the only one I have to look out for me.
Thats all.