Ode to the Carla gone
While I have been going out a lot and partying and trying so hard to move on.. I just can't. Everyone wants me to but I miss him. I miss him so much. Things just aren't the same without him. I can't listen to CCR or Radiohead (ie videotape..omg...) or Zeppelin without feeling a lump form in my throat. I want to go back and erase all these things I shouldn't have said or done. So much is missing from my life that I feel like cannot be replaced.
I want him to be happy, and I hope he's finding that happiness. I want to be selfish right now though... But I just can't take hearing the words "I don't love you anymore" and "in my gut I know its right" and "I'm ready to move on" again.
I wish I could get a relationship lobotomy so it wouldn't hurt so bad.
I want him to be happy, and I hope he's finding that happiness. I want to be selfish right now though... But I just can't take hearing the words "I don't love you anymore" and "in my gut I know its right" and "I'm ready to move on" again.
I wish I could get a relationship lobotomy so it wouldn't hurt so bad.