Sep 05, 2004 17:35
Just when i thought i'd never illegally download music again, i've once more become the victim to the terrible addiction. I'm not sure what made me do it..although i know hurricane Frances was a big culprit. So here I am, continuing what i started yesterday. Song after song, now i have complete albums. How exciting. I rather buy the darn cd bc downloading and searching just occupies too much time, but as of a few days ago, time is something i have in excess.
So nothing life shattering has happened lately..except I was in this state of confusion the other day...made my brain mushy and soupy. I didn't know what to think, or what to say, and for a second i didnt know what i wanted, but i came to realize all i'm looking for is purpose. and at this present time, i have none. i'm just wallowing around trying to find myself, trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life, and all i see are these bright orange barricades blocking my way, not allowing me to do what it is i truly want. The timing is all off, what i want i want it now, but these goals are unattainable as of now. Thrice always seems to make me feel better, and it's been a while since i sat down and listened to them, so hopefully and bath and thrice will make me feel chipper...or at least help me figure things out. ok so i guess wanting the world is one thing, but wanting the world all at once is just pure greed. the only thing i realllly need is some structure and perhaps a day at the beach with the hottest guy in the world. damn hurricane gave me too much time to think. so here i am, better than i was yesterday.