Vintage
I am soo happy...I have been this way for the past week, and it's soo cool! =D Everything is soo beautiful!! Amazing! =D I am living off of an adrenaline rush that I have never felt before. A mixture of feelings all rushing through my mind and heart all at once! Freedom..oh so beautiful!! =D HAppyness completely awesome..Giddyness..well that's one I haven't really ever felt before...=D extra hyperness when I am actually really tired...sillyness..cuteness...eligance...beauty...I find my self actually pretty now..weird huh? not trying to be vain or anything...but I am super dooper proud of the way I like..I'm happy to be me...and I am EXTREEMLY very happy to be free forever of the chains that held me back for soo long.
I am not bitter, I am not sad, and I don't really even regret that past relationship...I learned from it..I made mistakes and I matured through them..but God has set me free from the wrongness of that relationship...the constant nagging (not me) =D, the constant pressure of doing things, the constant obligated feeling....I know I did my own share of hurting in the relationship...but he has no chains holding me to him this time...his wrong outweighed mine...I am no longer one to be obligated in going back to him..he can cry his tears...I wont crumble this time...his mistakes have built me up strong and he can no longer lure me back with his words...Yah he's sorry...he's lost me forever and he knows that. I am now gratefull for all the mindless relationships I had before this past one...for them all ending as they did..with my boyfriends cheating on me or juss using me to have a girfriend...Iam glad they ended like that...for it was through the bitterness of those that helped me set my standards...and it was in the light of those that I found strength to say no...to hold onto my standards..once again!
The only true regret that I had from this past relationship...is that I lost my first kiss to it...I know it doesn't seem like that big of a deal..but to me a kiss is more beautiful and more deep...a kiss is very significant in a relationship...=) maybe it's juss me...I guess that's why I waited till I was 17 i think...or almost 17 to kiss for the first time...though I feel as though I should have waited longer...but mistakes grow you. They shape you...and that's what is so beautiful bout living...the way God shapes us more like Him..through mistake, through trials, and through rewards...it is a beautiful thing...I am trully happy.
I am also so thankful that I can stand on my own two feet and not be swayed by friends and what they think is cool. I don't have to look or act like them to be their friend..I'm accepted by them no matter what. I can stand out with my own style and them not care..I can hang with preps, when I am wearing more punk clothes and them be totally fine...I can be stupid and them juss laugh right along with me (or is it at me? ) lol I am very thankful that I can be who I am and be loved by my friends...I don't have to follow in their styles to be cool...I can even stick out completely and not feel awekward...I thank God for giving me such great friends...=D and them being of every variety...I have beautiful friends all of them..=D THEY ARE ALL SOO AWESOME!! LOVE ALL YOU PEEPS OUT THERE!! =D
and it all ends up with I am very happy and thankful for everything that's happened to me...even thoughs things that seemed painful..I am thankful for them..al the dark times, all my fears, they have all drawn me closer to God, I couldn't be happier.
luv luv luv to all you peeps
}!{Missy
I am not bitter, I am not sad, and I don't really even regret that past relationship...I learned from it..I made mistakes and I matured through them..but God has set me free from the wrongness of that relationship...the constant nagging (not me) =D, the constant pressure of doing things, the constant obligated feeling....I know I did my own share of hurting in the relationship...but he has no chains holding me to him this time...his wrong outweighed mine...I am no longer one to be obligated in going back to him..he can cry his tears...I wont crumble this time...his mistakes have built me up strong and he can no longer lure me back with his words...Yah he's sorry...he's lost me forever and he knows that. I am now gratefull for all the mindless relationships I had before this past one...for them all ending as they did..with my boyfriends cheating on me or juss using me to have a girfriend...Iam glad they ended like that...for it was through the bitterness of those that helped me set my standards...and it was in the light of those that I found strength to say no...to hold onto my standards..once again!
The only true regret that I had from this past relationship...is that I lost my first kiss to it...I know it doesn't seem like that big of a deal..but to me a kiss is more beautiful and more deep...a kiss is very significant in a relationship...=) maybe it's juss me...I guess that's why I waited till I was 17 i think...or almost 17 to kiss for the first time...though I feel as though I should have waited longer...but mistakes grow you. They shape you...and that's what is so beautiful bout living...the way God shapes us more like Him..through mistake, through trials, and through rewards...it is a beautiful thing...I am trully happy.
I am also so thankful that I can stand on my own two feet and not be swayed by friends and what they think is cool. I don't have to look or act like them to be their friend..I'm accepted by them no matter what. I can stand out with my own style and them not care..I can hang with preps, when I am wearing more punk clothes and them be totally fine...I can be stupid and them juss laugh right along with me (or is it at me? ) lol I am very thankful that I can be who I am and be loved by my friends...I don't have to follow in their styles to be cool...I can even stick out completely and not feel awekward...I thank God for giving me such great friends...=D and them being of every variety...I have beautiful friends all of them..=D THEY ARE ALL SOO AWESOME!! LOVE ALL YOU PEEPS OUT THERE!! =D
and it all ends up with I am very happy and thankful for everything that's happened to me...even thoughs things that seemed painful..I am thankful for them..al the dark times, all my fears, they have all drawn me closer to God, I couldn't be happier.
luv luv luv to all you peeps
}!{Missy