A moment to be recorded

[take_me_over_]

Last night cemented my hesistance towards trusting people. I now know that there is a distinct difference between giving people equal opportunity in the beginning to gain my trust and me giving it out equally from the beginning

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[drknockboots624]

I just don't understand why you don't see that I am who you're looking for... You used to see it... What the f*** did I do to screw that up...? You shouldn't be going through this, you shouldn't be dealing with guys who treat you like shit... And yet, as great of a guy as I am willing and you KNOW that I CAN be and have been and especially now that I've found my drive and motivation for life, it blows my mind that you CHOOSE this pain for yourself and ignore the opportunity that has been staring you in the face since we first met 3 years ago...

I don't intend any disrespect or anger with this post, I know I am sometimes bitter when I reply to your posts, but it pisses me off to see you hurt by these assholes when I know that everything you're looking for is inside of me...

You're a wonderful person and you deserve better than what you're being handed... I guess just count this post as agreeing with you... And I hope you do find someone better than me, at least then I'll know you're dating someone who deserves your love and respect...

[take_me_over_]

Yes, there is pain Andrew but that is life and I welcome it. I mostly write about negative feelings and relationships but that does not mean that is what is mostly important to me. What I write in here is what I am concluding and moving on from. I am not sympathetic to the past, I learn and look forward. And to be honest, I am not ready to find the right guy- I still need to explore. I can find love and respect in everyone, I can find it in the trees outside my door. I post when I am irrationally emotional or when I am reflective- do not use what I write as a measure for my spirit.

But I appreciate your kind words and I thank you for your concern.

[drknockboots624]

If you're not ready to find the right guy, you should stop going through the wrong ones, all you're going to do is hurt yourself and others like I've been hurt...

I don't know what you feel you need to explore about failed relationships with losers and assholes, but hey, it's your life...

I will keep my opinions to myself from now on...