For the first time in a long time I can say that I wanna try......
Well my interest was peaked I do believe. It's cool, nothing I'm looking to take far but it's just nice to be able to talk with someone that doesn't know me or any of the things that make me crazy.
I'm pretty torn lately on what to do with life because it seems things are taking a step backwards. I'm moving back home, quit my job, still don't have a clue on what I want to do (I'll elaborate more in a moment), and amongst all this I'm still stuck in the middle of situations I don't want to be in. Basically big changes are coming soon. My parents will be retired in the next few years and my choices are basically to move with them or take over the house. It seems everyone keeps telling me to just move on and let them go but at the same time anyone who knows me knows that I'm all about family and the last thing I want is something to happen and me not be there. Not everyone is as close with their parents as I am with mine and I find it sad. I understand people have different circumstances but I've always wanted to have kids and the last thing I would ever want is for me not to be close with them. It's the southern way.
If nothing else I truly am trying to venture out and meet new people so that when my time is up here I still have people close that I can hang with. It's not even necessarily meeting new people as it is rekindling old friendships or revamping old friendships into something better. I've came close to losing quite a few friends over the past few months and somehow I've kept them all together by staying out of the way for the most part or acting as a mediator even if not by choice.
I just don't want to end up living in HP for the rest of my life is what I'm driving at. It's always been home but I know I meant for more and deserve more. I just need to start believing a little in myself.
O and I kind of found you out by accident today. The truth is if you would have told me that you can't really talk to me often because of his insecurities I would have understood. Instead I'm left to believe that there's something wrong with me and that's why we've never seen each other outside those walls. These are things I should probably tell you but don't necessarily see the point. I don't think it'll change our status and may even make it worse to where we'll never talk again but that might as well be the case at this point. When everyone is ready to be adults just get at me. I'm a fantastic judge of character and was just blind sided to how much control you don't have over yourself. Just do me a favor and don't end up like that trick you work with.
Ehhh.....long day 2 morrow. I really do loathe Wed. up until the point of me getting home from school. Secret Girlfriend is on so that's one thing to look forward to.
I'm pretty torn lately on what to do with life because it seems things are taking a step backwards. I'm moving back home, quit my job, still don't have a clue on what I want to do (I'll elaborate more in a moment), and amongst all this I'm still stuck in the middle of situations I don't want to be in. Basically big changes are coming soon. My parents will be retired in the next few years and my choices are basically to move with them or take over the house. It seems everyone keeps telling me to just move on and let them go but at the same time anyone who knows me knows that I'm all about family and the last thing I want is something to happen and me not be there. Not everyone is as close with their parents as I am with mine and I find it sad. I understand people have different circumstances but I've always wanted to have kids and the last thing I would ever want is for me not to be close with them. It's the southern way.
If nothing else I truly am trying to venture out and meet new people so that when my time is up here I still have people close that I can hang with. It's not even necessarily meeting new people as it is rekindling old friendships or revamping old friendships into something better. I've came close to losing quite a few friends over the past few months and somehow I've kept them all together by staying out of the way for the most part or acting as a mediator even if not by choice.
I just don't want to end up living in HP for the rest of my life is what I'm driving at. It's always been home but I know I meant for more and deserve more. I just need to start believing a little in myself.
O and I kind of found you out by accident today. The truth is if you would have told me that you can't really talk to me often because of his insecurities I would have understood. Instead I'm left to believe that there's something wrong with me and that's why we've never seen each other outside those walls. These are things I should probably tell you but don't necessarily see the point. I don't think it'll change our status and may even make it worse to where we'll never talk again but that might as well be the case at this point. When everyone is ready to be adults just get at me. I'm a fantastic judge of character and was just blind sided to how much control you don't have over yourself. Just do me a favor and don't end up like that trick you work with.
Ehhh.....long day 2 morrow. I really do loathe Wed. up until the point of me getting home from school. Secret Girlfriend is on so that's one thing to look forward to.