just a day in the book. tomorrow is yet another opportunity.
i've got a lot of things going through my mind right now.
im not half the person i would like to be. and im really frustrated with myself. barely anything seems really comfortable anymore. and nothing is really black and white at all anymore.. and that kind of scares me. it kind of makes right and wrong a lot harder to categorize. and that scares me even more. i just wish that things were a little bit different right now. i wish i were living up to myself. and doing what i want to do. because right now.. things are slow. nothing is falling into place.. and things just seem to keep slipping. and i know it is me who needs to take the step towards making things right again.. but what do you do, when you dont know which direction to step in?
i dont like sitting around all day. it makes me kind of crabby. especially knowing everyone is out having fun. and im inside. sick. and wanting to be having fun.
funny thing is. im not really that crabby.. and i didnt mean for that paragraph to come off how it did at all.. but it did. and im not going to go back and change it because.. that is just what i felt right as i was typing away. SOOOO... enough of me making myself sound debbie downerish when really im fine. and im really looking forward to going to bed real soon.
hope yall had wonderful nights. ( :] )
<3
ps. i made a xanga. :]
im not half the person i would like to be. and im really frustrated with myself. barely anything seems really comfortable anymore. and nothing is really black and white at all anymore.. and that kind of scares me. it kind of makes right and wrong a lot harder to categorize. and that scares me even more. i just wish that things were a little bit different right now. i wish i were living up to myself. and doing what i want to do. because right now.. things are slow. nothing is falling into place.. and things just seem to keep slipping. and i know it is me who needs to take the step towards making things right again.. but what do you do, when you dont know which direction to step in?
i dont like sitting around all day. it makes me kind of crabby. especially knowing everyone is out having fun. and im inside. sick. and wanting to be having fun.
funny thing is. im not really that crabby.. and i didnt mean for that paragraph to come off how it did at all.. but it did. and im not going to go back and change it because.. that is just what i felt right as i was typing away. SOOOO... enough of me making myself sound debbie downerish when really im fine. and im really looking forward to going to bed real soon.
hope yall had wonderful nights. ( :] )
<3
ps. i made a xanga. :]