ignoring the words of you obnoxious little brother
hm. its been a while.
i really dont know where i last left off.
ill go back to friday.
friday bergy came and we went to J sum's house. we were suppose to go aslyuming with people. but they chickened out. and we had to wait for Js parents to come home cause he was babysitting his little sister. so we waited. i had the comfortable[est] couch in the world. and we watched the Japanese movie Battle Royale, which im in love with. i fell asleep on his couch. and bergy kept whacking herself in the face. it was funny. i had to be home by 2, so when J's parents came home like 1-130, we went to dunkin donuts and chilled at my house til 3. it was fun. i missed bergy and summerer. <3. so hopefully asylum this sat !!ON33!!111.
the weekend/mon/tue were ehh. i was at dads all the time. did nothing.
wed morning at 230 am, my grandma was admitted to the hospital. sucks. i dont know what to do with myself...
school is okay. brian makes it all worthwhile. i just cant read him. why? boys i need help. someone give me some advice before i scream. and there were circumstance, my sister helga, told me about last night, and it pissed me off X2351536543584736820946095438605437609284398507410545 that much. fuckin nigs.
last night hung out with edgar, justin, and bergster. went to dunkin donuts. and chilled there. i felt awkward, cause i had nothing to say... and i felt like an asshole because they invited me out and i just sat there drinking coffee. the coffee gave me a tummy ache =/. so it was like 1130 and i had to be home at 12, and bergy was taking me home, and we were talking about things. i love you jenn b. and i decided to call my mom and see if i can stay out later, cause everyone was headin over to joes. she said til 1. so we went there and i felt like i was going to throwup, and i felt like a complete bitch, cause i hate when people overreact about not feeling good, and i felt like i was... and i just felt really stupid. like i was trying to get attention. i suck at living.
i just dotn feel like me. and im sorry to all those who try to have fun with me around, but i just dont feel fun. like i dont feel like krystina. i feel somber and cynical about everything. and im sorry to all who i hurt. i keep thinking about things, and worrying over nothing. i feel like i cant talke to people becuase they wont understand. i wish,just one night, i didnt feel so meek and timid around people, and i could be boisterous and wild. another night like the old me, i think, would do me good.
i really dont know where i last left off.
ill go back to friday.
friday bergy came and we went to J sum's house. we were suppose to go aslyuming with people. but they chickened out. and we had to wait for Js parents to come home cause he was babysitting his little sister. so we waited. i had the comfortable[est] couch in the world. and we watched the Japanese movie Battle Royale, which im in love with. i fell asleep on his couch. and bergy kept whacking herself in the face. it was funny. i had to be home by 2, so when J's parents came home like 1-130, we went to dunkin donuts and chilled at my house til 3. it was fun. i missed bergy and summerer. <3. so hopefully asylum this sat !!ON33!!111.
the weekend/mon/tue were ehh. i was at dads all the time. did nothing.
wed morning at 230 am, my grandma was admitted to the hospital. sucks. i dont know what to do with myself...
school is okay. brian makes it all worthwhile. i just cant read him. why? boys i need help. someone give me some advice before i scream. and there were circumstance, my sister helga, told me about last night, and it pissed me off X2351536543584736820946095438605437609284398507410545 that much. fuckin nigs.
last night hung out with edgar, justin, and bergster. went to dunkin donuts. and chilled there. i felt awkward, cause i had nothing to say... and i felt like an asshole because they invited me out and i just sat there drinking coffee. the coffee gave me a tummy ache =/. so it was like 1130 and i had to be home at 12, and bergy was taking me home, and we were talking about things. i love you jenn b. and i decided to call my mom and see if i can stay out later, cause everyone was headin over to joes. she said til 1. so we went there and i felt like i was going to throwup, and i felt like a complete bitch, cause i hate when people overreact about not feeling good, and i felt like i was... and i just felt really stupid. like i was trying to get attention. i suck at living.
i just dotn feel like me. and im sorry to all those who try to have fun with me around, but i just dont feel fun. like i dont feel like krystina. i feel somber and cynical about everything. and im sorry to all who i hurt. i keep thinking about things, and worrying over nothing. i feel like i cant talke to people becuase they wont understand. i wish,just one night, i didnt feel so meek and timid around people, and i could be boisterous and wild. another night like the old me, i think, would do me good.