i get lost inside the wonder of Your beauty...
last day of being 14. I think I've kept all my regrets about this year inside for too long, so I'm letting them all go.
When crud happens to me, it's my own fault. I think the whole youth group thing is my fault. But hey, it's over. I'm going to be 15, and I'm going to start over. I'm putting everything behind me and I'm living my life.
I'm not really sure what I'm going to do tomorrow. My mom bought me a bright yellow cake and Disney Princess figurines to stick on top. I'm leaning toward wanting to go to see Across the Universe again. My mom doesn't understand my obsession with that movie. :D
I also decided not to do NaNoWriMo this year, or at least change ideas. I wrote the first chapter and I realized I really got off track. Maybe I'll go back on the fifth and try to rewrite it. I really don't know what I was thinking. I picked the worst plot idea and I went with it. I just don't want to do it. It's not a matter of giving up, I lost my reason to do it though.
But hey, tech week for production class is coming in what, four days? :) That's like, 1 or 4 reasons to live (the others being Jesus, family, friends outside of drama, and really really good food, haha.) Everything will be right. I have faith for that. :)
thanks for reading.
[i've lied to You in so many ways, but You say You don't rememeber, You don't remember, You can't remember me that way. A melody so sweet, i'll sing forever of your love.]
When crud happens to me, it's my own fault. I think the whole youth group thing is my fault. But hey, it's over. I'm going to be 15, and I'm going to start over. I'm putting everything behind me and I'm living my life.
I'm not really sure what I'm going to do tomorrow. My mom bought me a bright yellow cake and Disney Princess figurines to stick on top. I'm leaning toward wanting to go to see Across the Universe again. My mom doesn't understand my obsession with that movie. :D
I also decided not to do NaNoWriMo this year, or at least change ideas. I wrote the first chapter and I realized I really got off track. Maybe I'll go back on the fifth and try to rewrite it. I really don't know what I was thinking. I picked the worst plot idea and I went with it. I just don't want to do it. It's not a matter of giving up, I lost my reason to do it though.
But hey, tech week for production class is coming in what, four days? :) That's like, 1 or 4 reasons to live (the others being Jesus, family, friends outside of drama, and really really good food, haha.) Everything will be right. I have faith for that. :)
thanks for reading.
[i've lied to You in so many ways, but You say You don't rememeber, You don't remember, You can't remember me that way. A melody so sweet, i'll sing forever of your love.]