my b0o ; <3 *.
so i'm sitting here at 10:35 at night listening to 'my boo'. lmao. life is good. this weekend kind of sucked considering 99.9% of it consisted of ulta. saturday i worked 2-10 and went out with ken afterwards for our 10 month anniversary today ♥ =] .. then today i worked 6am-2. which is bullcrap -- closing and then having to come in sunday morning at 6 am! brotha fucka! and my manager taylor was seriously pissing me off to no end .. the stupidest little jobs she had me doing - as if she couldn't do anything for herself. it was just frustrating.
i finally busted out of there at 2 .. went to a few stores with the madre .. and then came home and showered. at 6, me, steph, and my mom went back to ulta yet again for employee appreciation night. and can i just tell you, my mom completely bought out a lot of our stock lmao. i love her though. i got a few things - new mascara, this really good smelling lotion .. some hair stuff .. it was pretty exciting i guess =] lol.
i was driving ken's car tonight and i totally fucked up his left rim. i feel like shit because of that.
so tomorrow = friday! and thursday = friday, which is fucking awesome because we only have 3 days of school this week. w00t. which means i can sleep late 2 days this week 8] wattup. definitely looking forward to that.
my mom and i were talking about prom this afternoon .. and seriously, all of that shit in june that seems like it's so far away .. will be here before we know it. seriously. this year seems like it's dragging, but it'll be christmas soon.
i feel like almost no time elapsed from this time last year to now .. it's just so strange. this time last year was probably the worst time of my life. although i had a boyfriend & a lot of friends supporting me, i was losing my grandma one day at a time. which sucked so much. and now, i feel like i'm back at that same old spot again. i've got a boyfriend - a different one than last year, but nonetheless, a boyfriend (who i love & care about very much) .. and friends that support me .. although not in the ways they did last year and less than half of them even show support .. but thats besides the fact. because i feel like i am slowly losing my aunt. i haven't gone to see her in over 2 weeks. and she lives across the street. so you'd think it's pretty impossible for me not to see her. but yeah, i haven't seen her in about 2 weeks. i guess i just can't bring myself to go see her. because when i wanted to see my grandma, who was very sick also, and living across the street .. i was able to. i was able to deal with seeing her in the condition she was in. but i cannot deal with seeing my aunt in her condition. when you're diagnosed with ovarian, uterine, lung, liver, bone, and brain cancer .. it's completely expected of someone not to be themselves. and that's scary to me. my aunt was always the one that reassured us while my grandma was sick and she was taking care of her. who's there to reassure us now that koo is sick =[ gram please give her the strength to overcome all of this .. i know you miss her but we need her here and so do her boys.
i pray so hard that my aunt koo will be okay. i don't visit her as much as i would like to. and that's not because i don't want to - but it's because it brings back so many disturbing memories of last year .. watching my grandma die. it was fucking horrible. i would never wish that upon anyone. i had never seen a dead person before in my life. and i watched my grandmother die.
please give koo strength .. please ..