Entry One - Why Reiki?
I started thinking about Reiki a couple of years ago because I feel so helpless when someone I care about is ill. Being the ultimate control freak, I want to be able to fix it and I get upset when I can't do anything. I've always felt attuned to healing, even as far as wanting to be a dr while growing up (it was the years of schooling that scared me away). So, I thought about learning from time to time but never really did anything about it.
In the past 9 months, my life has been filled with turmoil, upheaval and personal challenges. Just like the tower card in tarot, my walls were shaken to the foundation and after taking some time for reflection, it's time to start building them up again. I've known for months that I was supposed to change, that I have been walking a never ending circle for a very long time and that it was time to step off, make a new path and to start becoming who I'm supposed to be. I started to realize, with the help of a friend, that life shouldn't be molding me into who I am, I should instead be molding my life to fit who I want to be. That thought, once accepted was profound.
The number of personal changes in my life right now are huge. I feel I should be wearing a sign that says "Work in Progress, Proceed Cautiously". I'm doing a lot of things that are out of the ordinary for me and I can't even give reasons for some of them, other than, I know that it's what I'm supposed to do. I'm trying to live my life without fear of the unknown (still working on that), having no personal issues holding me back and lastly, trying to live for me. In the past nine months I've learned that there are *very few* people in this world that I can depend on and that I have to be the strong one because hardly anyone else is going to do it for me, and that's as it should be. It was a painful lesson to learn, though. I learned that I put too much trust in too many people and that I have to be my own island instead. I've learned that almost everyone lies, no matter how close you think you are to them. And while I sound bitter, I'm not. These were all lessons that I had to learn in order to start on my own path, be my own person and stop depending on others.
What does that have to do with Reiki? Nothing specifically. But it has everything to do with me and why I chose to follow Reiki. This is what I have to do for me, it's what I'm supposed to do at this point. Even with two jobs and a family to keep up with, I choose this path. It's a scary path clouded over with fog so I can't see very far down it but there are big neon signs over it pointing the way. Widget, I don't think we're in Kansas anymore!
Next Post - Entry 2 - "What is Reiki vs What I Expect" (From post 2 on, the Reiki posts will be locked to avoid spamming up people's friend's pages.)
In the past 9 months, my life has been filled with turmoil, upheaval and personal challenges. Just like the tower card in tarot, my walls were shaken to the foundation and after taking some time for reflection, it's time to start building them up again. I've known for months that I was supposed to change, that I have been walking a never ending circle for a very long time and that it was time to step off, make a new path and to start becoming who I'm supposed to be. I started to realize, with the help of a friend, that life shouldn't be molding me into who I am, I should instead be molding my life to fit who I want to be. That thought, once accepted was profound.
The number of personal changes in my life right now are huge. I feel I should be wearing a sign that says "Work in Progress, Proceed Cautiously". I'm doing a lot of things that are out of the ordinary for me and I can't even give reasons for some of them, other than, I know that it's what I'm supposed to do. I'm trying to live my life without fear of the unknown (still working on that), having no personal issues holding me back and lastly, trying to live for me. In the past nine months I've learned that there are *very few* people in this world that I can depend on and that I have to be the strong one because hardly anyone else is going to do it for me, and that's as it should be. It was a painful lesson to learn, though. I learned that I put too much trust in too many people and that I have to be my own island instead. I've learned that almost everyone lies, no matter how close you think you are to them. And while I sound bitter, I'm not. These were all lessons that I had to learn in order to start on my own path, be my own person and stop depending on others.
What does that have to do with Reiki? Nothing specifically. But it has everything to do with me and why I chose to follow Reiki. This is what I have to do for me, it's what I'm supposed to do at this point. Even with two jobs and a family to keep up with, I choose this path. It's a scary path clouded over with fog so I can't see very far down it but there are big neon signs over it pointing the way. Widget, I don't think we're in Kansas anymore!
Next Post - Entry 2 - "What is Reiki vs What I Expect" (From post 2 on, the Reiki posts will be locked to avoid spamming up people's friend's pages.)