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So tonight I got bitch-slapped in the face by how fucked up I and my life are. So I go out to get something to eat tonight, I pull up to Pennarra and put the car in park, and then realize I really hate eating out alone. So I reverse and drive to a couple other places all of which I get that feeling at. So I drive back to my house unfed. The problem lies in that I don't have many people whom I hang out with... less than a full hands worth actually, much less. Most of the people I hangout with live in excess of 45 minutes away, not making for a very convenient random "lets hangout for a bit". All the while the reason why I don't have friends is my own fault. I have such low self-worth that I feel unconfident about meeting new people. So what do I do? I eat Chex Mix and mope my ass off.