I'm ENGAGED!!!
I'm going to marry my boyfriend. Actually he's my fiance now. Err...FEYONCE. We've decided that's the better way to spell it. And it has more flair if you say it like BEYONCE. The ring is beautiful. I'm incredibly happy. He's so amazing. YAY!!!
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Wow, I just read over an entry in December of mine, the REALLY REALLY long one from Dec 3rd. It's unbelievable. I was considering up and outting because of certain things, and not even giving the proper chance and time needed. Thank God I didn't! He came through in every way possible. The boy is everything I want and everything I need. Do you ever think life is as awesome as it can get, and then, it gets even awesomer??? Everything just makes sense these days. My life makes sense. I have a purpose and a plan and a wonderful man who loves me. Wonderful family, great friends. I never would've imagine life would come together this quickly and amazingly. Seriously.
I think that the big G-O-D is behind it all. Back when I was younger, in my teens, I was a believer. Then I walked away from all that, decided it was crap. Decided God and Jesus weren't anything to be thought about. Waste of time. And now that I've come back to it, I can't imagine WHAT I was thinking back then. I can't even describe how much better my life is with God in it. I can't imagine how depressing it would be to just think that I was here to f*ck around for 70 years and then die and that's the end. Seriously! Where is the hope or joy in that? And when you go through something, man...I can't imagine going through a traumatic event without having God. Found out last week my dad might have cancer. Am I stressing? Heck no, I am not! I cried for a moment, then just prayed about it and let it go. No need for me to worry about that. God will take care of my dad- I'm certain of that. He's bigger than I am, and much more responsible. So I'll just leave it up to him and I won't stress.
I don't know if anyone reads this thing anymore. I just felt inclined to blab anyways. Because I'm just so happy and feel like such a complete person and...Man. I know that no one who reads this probably even believes in Jesus/God, and that's ok. Because I needed to just say that he's wonderful, and he's done some amazing things for me. And that is all!
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Wow, I just read over an entry in December of mine, the REALLY REALLY long one from Dec 3rd. It's unbelievable. I was considering up and outting because of certain things, and not even giving the proper chance and time needed. Thank God I didn't! He came through in every way possible. The boy is everything I want and everything I need. Do you ever think life is as awesome as it can get, and then, it gets even awesomer??? Everything just makes sense these days. My life makes sense. I have a purpose and a plan and a wonderful man who loves me. Wonderful family, great friends. I never would've imagine life would come together this quickly and amazingly. Seriously.
I think that the big G-O-D is behind it all. Back when I was younger, in my teens, I was a believer. Then I walked away from all that, decided it was crap. Decided God and Jesus weren't anything to be thought about. Waste of time. And now that I've come back to it, I can't imagine WHAT I was thinking back then. I can't even describe how much better my life is with God in it. I can't imagine how depressing it would be to just think that I was here to f*ck around for 70 years and then die and that's the end. Seriously! Where is the hope or joy in that? And when you go through something, man...I can't imagine going through a traumatic event without having God. Found out last week my dad might have cancer. Am I stressing? Heck no, I am not! I cried for a moment, then just prayed about it and let it go. No need for me to worry about that. God will take care of my dad- I'm certain of that. He's bigger than I am, and much more responsible. So I'll just leave it up to him and I won't stress.
I don't know if anyone reads this thing anymore. I just felt inclined to blab anyways. Because I'm just so happy and feel like such a complete person and...Man. I know that no one who reads this probably even believes in Jesus/God, and that's ok. Because I needed to just say that he's wonderful, and he's done some amazing things for me. And that is all!