something worth not saying
i have a lot on my mind right now - im not really sure why, but i think i might have said somethings that i shouldnt have - that im not even sure if i feel that way - or if i want to feel that way. i do things on impulse & dont really think about if something would counter act what i did at all. sometimes i wish i could just have a new brain because i think this one is out of wack. =]
im not sure what i really meant at all by telling people i feel one way on things and two seconds later changing it back. i can never make my mind up at all - im like a little kid in a candy store - i want this - no wait, i want that - it goes on and on and on - but honestly it doesnt matter because nothing is to become of something like that. it just doesnt because it doesnt happen to people like me as far as im concerned at all. im not that lucky - and if i was well it is somethings ive never experienced before.
i guess time will tell but i might have just took it all wrong - im far to good at doing that.
xoxo.