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Well..things have hit their highs and lows big time lately. Relationships have been tested seriously.. people I love have been hurt.. and my patience have been pushed beyond their limit. It's 6:30 right now.. there's a group of girls in the field house that I broke bones in..cried in..laughed.. jumped.. hated and loved.. and made the best memories in. We watched ourselves heelstretch in front of the mirrors.. drop stunts and hit perfect libs.. we layed on those gross blue mats to "imagize" or just break down. My love was to be in front of all those people next to the girls I cared about more than anyone.. after all the emotional practices. I decided to not cheer this season.. not only because the girls that shaped me into the person I am quit.. but because it was the best choice for me.. so why does it still hurt so much. Cheering is what I love more than anything and it just ended today?.. No I'm just taking a 7 month break to regain composure.. emotionally and physically. So I'm sorry to everyone I let down and I wanna thank Cassie Elizabeth Monica Lauren Andrea Caitlin Nicole T Missy Alex Ana Dana and Shanelle.. and the girls before me that are the reason I've come this far. It's not over but it hurts so much it feels like it is..like I just gave up on everything. I'll miss it.. but this is not a choice I'm gonna regret.

I love you guys. Thank you for everything

<3 Amanda.