why?
Things fell into place this weekend. Met some amazing people at the Particle show on friday night who ended up driving me up to Prescot Saturday where I met even more incredible people and had the most intense amazing night I have ever had (maybe not ever, but it's on the top 3....silly how I've had all 3 of them in the past 2 months).
After not sleeping all night I listened to a messege from my momma saying that 6 people were shot and killed at a party on Capitol Hill. This was in a friend's house. I knew two of the kids, not well, but knew they were sweet people who didn't deserve this.
I am still in a state of shock. I don't know what to do. There is nothing I can do. How am I supposed to walk near this house again?
I broke down Sunday after talking to Ben. I got off the phone with him and sat outside the conference balling. People were all around me and no one said I damn thing to me. I was sobbing and people just walked by, stood a few feet away laughing and smoking their cancer sticks. I walked away from the building but broke down again before getting too far. I fell to the ground in tears. Finally this guy came up and asked me if I was ok, and then offered to give me an energy clensing, which helped for all of two minutes. Kyle must have felt my energy and he called right at that moment. He told me that there is evil in this world, that sometimes it latches onto humans and causes them to do evil things. I needed him then and he got me to smile and laugh a bit.
I miss seattle, the northwest. I am excited to go home and give all of my friends a huge hug and tell them to their face how much they mean to me. I will never take for granted another moment I have on this earth, I will never take for granted the people I choose to keep in my life. Life is short, and you never know when it may end. Please send any positive energy you may have to spare towards this house and the family and friends of those who have passed on. Much love to you all...
After not sleeping all night I listened to a messege from my momma saying that 6 people were shot and killed at a party on Capitol Hill. This was in a friend's house. I knew two of the kids, not well, but knew they were sweet people who didn't deserve this.
I am still in a state of shock. I don't know what to do. There is nothing I can do. How am I supposed to walk near this house again?
I broke down Sunday after talking to Ben. I got off the phone with him and sat outside the conference balling. People were all around me and no one said I damn thing to me. I was sobbing and people just walked by, stood a few feet away laughing and smoking their cancer sticks. I walked away from the building but broke down again before getting too far. I fell to the ground in tears. Finally this guy came up and asked me if I was ok, and then offered to give me an energy clensing, which helped for all of two minutes. Kyle must have felt my energy and he called right at that moment. He told me that there is evil in this world, that sometimes it latches onto humans and causes them to do evil things. I needed him then and he got me to smile and laugh a bit.
I miss seattle, the northwest. I am excited to go home and give all of my friends a huge hug and tell them to their face how much they mean to me. I will never take for granted another moment I have on this earth, I will never take for granted the people I choose to keep in my life. Life is short, and you never know when it may end. Please send any positive energy you may have to spare towards this house and the family and friends of those who have passed on. Much love to you all...