Just keeping a tab on my state of mind.
I'm falling more and more.
My Apathy, Anxiety, and Mistrust are starting to set in again.
Maybe I really do hate myself for being so weak and incompetent sometimes. I'm ashamed of the experiences I've never had. Of the opportunities I never had to experience them.
Playing s4... makes me feel like crap honestly. But I'm playing cause I like the characters and the music. I just can't keep up with everyone else. My goal in most of these matches is just to keep a 1:1 ratio. Which is prolly why I like TD more than DM. At least in TD, you play together as a team to accomplish a goal...at least usually.
I'm probably going to quit playing soon too. The self-esteem issues are eating me up inside. The leveling doesn't make a difference to me. I can always level in TD matches since I play defense. I'm just really tired of feeling like a burden to the teams I'm on.
Game Over guys. I think I need to update my life instead.
My Apathy, Anxiety, and Mistrust are starting to set in again.
Maybe I really do hate myself for being so weak and incompetent sometimes. I'm ashamed of the experiences I've never had. Of the opportunities I never had to experience them.
Playing s4... makes me feel like crap honestly. But I'm playing cause I like the characters and the music. I just can't keep up with everyone else. My goal in most of these matches is just to keep a 1:1 ratio. Which is prolly why I like TD more than DM. At least in TD, you play together as a team to accomplish a goal...at least usually.
I'm probably going to quit playing soon too. The self-esteem issues are eating me up inside. The leveling doesn't make a difference to me. I can always level in TD matches since I play defense. I'm just really tired of feeling like a burden to the teams I'm on.
Game Over guys. I think I need to update my life instead.