.dead, but breathing.
today was not so good. im stuck in the house until i take my finals. which gives me a lot of time to overthink a lot of things. and with the state im in recently, this is not good. alex said something to me that really set me off. i broke down immediately. "none of my friends like you." "your friends arent friends at all." i know he didnt mean it the way i took it. and didnt realize that things of this sort have been bothering me for quite some time. but right now, he's the only friend that ive really got.. and this is becoming more and more apparent. and i definitely dont need anyone to rub that in my face.
i hate sounding like whiny little fuck, but lately, i just dont know what the deal is. i feel so alone, all the time. ive been trying to surround myself with people. but i still have no one i can talk to on any level past surface chatter. i guess its my own fault.
i hate sounding like whiny little fuck, but lately, i just dont know what the deal is. i feel so alone, all the time. ive been trying to surround myself with people. but i still have no one i can talk to on any level past surface chatter. i guess its my own fault.