Oct 01, 2006 14:29
I can’t believe Alex and I are together. I mean I really love this woman, so yeah it’s scary, or at least I’m scared, because I don’t want to lose her like I lost Sam. We talked about it once or twice, but not in depth or anything, she’s got a lot going on with her slayer and everything else she doesn’t need to be dealing with my emotional baggage to. I guess I’m just worried about losing her or watching her die. Sometimes I feel like an infectious disease where I infect all the people I care about. It happened with Buffy and with Sam, why should now be any different?
I just have to keep telling myself that this is different. Maybe one day I’ll finally let go and then it really will be different, but that probably won’t be for a while.
Alex says she’s going to be working or studying or something so I decide to take a walk doesn’t hurt to get fresh air and get used to everything around campus. With the students missing and disappearing I figure maybe I can figure something out. You can take the man out of the Iniative but not the Iniative out of the man.
I changed into some shorts and a t-shirt and then stretched as I ran around the campus. I took my time and ran a few times around the entire campus and slowed down to jog and look around and see if anything was out of the ordinary. I stopped to get a drink at the fountain and heard some girls talking about their friend missing. I walked around campus and heard a few other people talking about their friends missing.
I run back to the house and take a moment to catch my breathe as I run up the stairs to find Alex. “Hey. I’ve got something big to tell you.” I say as I put my hands above my head to help put the cramp at ease. “There’s been girls missing all over the campus, I’ve heard of at least 3 girls today on my run.”