The Pains of Feminine Influence
Females are the bane of my existence, but I yearn to have them. It is such a confusing topic because at one point I hate all women not because the are women but because I generally hate all people. But some women are very manipulative and devious. They tell lies they need to get you into the place they want. Ive seen people cornered in reationships and threatened suicide when the man tried to flee the hell he was in. Girls that do that have the most power Queens of queens, matriarches. They set up word pitfalls that you walk unsuspectingly into, these dangerous traps often are concealed by questions of appearance or emotion. Do you like my hair this way? Do you love me? I'm not saying women are bad just some have extrodinary power over the opposite sex. They make pets of men, break them down, even topple the sturdiest of us. Deception is also a devious trait found in many women. Often in avoiding men women will go to extremes to blow them off. In the past 2 years i have gotten, " My dog died." A few days later I find out from a mutual friend that Feido is alive and kicking. Why must many men fall victim to becoming a peon under the queen's control. Recently I went on a date with a girl who said she was interested in me. Our first date was decent. I had to fight to keep the conversation going because it always seem to fall dead in her court. My mind raced to find a discussion that interested her and whenever there was a glimmer of hope it all fell to shit. But what gets to me is that without a second chance she moves her sights to a close friend. Angry ? No I'm not angry my bud has the right in fact I'll encourage him to give it his best. Bitter? only a bit, not to my friend no, Who wouldn't want to go out with a hot girl. But the bitterness and agrivassion does fall upon the beauty that gave a false glimmer of hope. She has the right to not want to see me but was I really that horrible, was I too shy, was I too ugly, did I offend her in some way? All of these question come back into play and the hinkering for depression or rage sets in. Am I really that BAD. All of this because of one twist of the knife that I wasn't expecting but should beware of in the future when dealing with women. Another situation is that of the untouchables. The high rolling beauties that toy with you. First of all as my friend put it," girls like that are attracted to confidence and looks only" Most girls are of course there are very little that venture my way but when they do it is tourture they put you through. They flirt, they tease they cuddle next to you and the next day as if you did something wrong they turn from you breaking ties just to see if you'll persue. The tourment you with lust and then throw it in your face. Have pity we are human too. well not me but most guys are. Finally I come to the most tourtures for both sexes, both me and a friend are trapped in them at the moment. The dreaded "love triangle" Everyone gets hurt except the person in the safety zone. The relationship is simple, a girl who has a boyfriend sees something in another guy that she really likes. The choice between the two young bucks never arrises because there is safety in charted waters. But there is a standing relationship that borderlines flirtation that is truely both heaven and hell. The suitor is draw to girl and becomes minorly infatuated which is unhealthy all together. The girl also is tourtured between the two weary to step to far away from the line the boyfriend has drawn. An this is the norm for weeks to months with no resolve. Triangles are truely the worst of all card s the women deal. Not to place blame on the woman though some stinging the suitor along is sometimes at play. This story is well told in the book End of the Affair and a the key word of jealousy is perfectly to describe the suitors position. To end I'd like to say is that I only blame women because I have trouble blaming myself. I am bitter and vicious when it comes to dating and probably not the right person to be playing the dating game. Will i drop out? Probably not. But I can't tell how long it will be till I crack and end up totally overcome with rage and contempt for the opposite races' queens of manipulation.