my life sucks so bad
everything is just falling apart. i cant get into college b/c ive been slack all 4 yrs of high school . all my friends are starting to hate or, or they are just triflin and stab me in the back. I just got in a huge fight with one of my BEST friends. and ugh...im pretty much ready to quit EVERYTHING and just leave North Carolina. I CANNOT wait to move. Everything is just pissing me off lately. And i hate when people get mad at me for nothing. It kills me when my CLOSEST friends just bail out and go crazy on me with no leverage. ugh/...im just so much in a bad mood right now. and im not going to that fucking competition tomorrow ...thats the last fucking thing i wanna do. OMG I guess this is just a vent session. So here we go with everything. I hate the way people blow me off and think its nothing. I hate the way people cheat on the people they go out with, I know that I may have had something to do with it, but thats what alcohol and drugs will do to u. I hate backstabbers. I hate the fact that im a failure. I hate the way people are in general. I hate myself sometimes. I hate how I have to see couples everywhere, especially when theyre your close friends. it makes me sick to know that it aint happenin for me. I hate my life right now...people just fcking piss me the fuck off god dammit. I hate liking someone and them not liking you back for one reason or another. I hate the feeling of rejection ...from anything...believe me I know FIRST HAND from every angle. I ahte the world . I hate everything.
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