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Days like today make me happy.
But they also catch me spacing out while i walk, when im looking out into a grey distance and noticing the things that stand out from the clouds. I see objects belonging to other people through their windows and i wonder for just a split second what it would be like to be that person, or that window's person, or that other window's person. I see faces from far off who i think remind me of someone, only to notice close up that they are nothing of what i thought from far away. I see girls who i think are pretty but i quickly do my best to hide the fact that i ever saw them in the first place, to avoid drawing attention to myself, or maybe to sneakily notice if they will look at me. I think people will look at other people around them as long as they believe the person they are beholding has very little chance of looking back at them. If im pondering how a building ruins my view of the clouds, i seem to catch eyes when i look back to my path. i always wonder about those eyes, if they are really what they seem, or if i'm just creating everything in my head to be percieved by my eyes a certain way. its usually the latter. That person i spied from far off i made sure to avoid any contact with them, sometimes even if it's a person i know. I'm in no mood for plesantries when im observing a tree's fingers against a fog of grey backdrop. I wonder if anyone else i'm walking past notices today's weather is wonderful. I wonder if they look at it and think about how it affects them. I wonder if they too take a moment to notice they are changing.
But they also catch me spacing out while i walk, when im looking out into a grey distance and noticing the things that stand out from the clouds. I see objects belonging to other people through their windows and i wonder for just a split second what it would be like to be that person, or that window's person, or that other window's person. I see faces from far off who i think remind me of someone, only to notice close up that they are nothing of what i thought from far away. I see girls who i think are pretty but i quickly do my best to hide the fact that i ever saw them in the first place, to avoid drawing attention to myself, or maybe to sneakily notice if they will look at me. I think people will look at other people around them as long as they believe the person they are beholding has very little chance of looking back at them. If im pondering how a building ruins my view of the clouds, i seem to catch eyes when i look back to my path. i always wonder about those eyes, if they are really what they seem, or if i'm just creating everything in my head to be percieved by my eyes a certain way. its usually the latter. That person i spied from far off i made sure to avoid any contact with them, sometimes even if it's a person i know. I'm in no mood for plesantries when im observing a tree's fingers against a fog of grey backdrop. I wonder if anyone else i'm walking past notices today's weather is wonderful. I wonder if they look at it and think about how it affects them. I wonder if they too take a moment to notice they are changing.