Baby Update
so i had another Nst this morning around 10 am. i have been going for the past 3 weeks on Tues and Fridays for Bpp's and Nst's. Its fun in a way since i can see my baby and then listen a good hour to her heart beat or her hiccups which seems to be the case lately. O yes i haven't posted that it is a....
a girly!
We are not 100% on names just yet so i am not going to post it until i am sure. Lately the Doctor has been getting on my last nerve, acting as if i have been going out of my way to raise my Blood sugars just to mess with him. i have been trying my damndest to keep it under control. what is the point to poking my fingers almost 5 times a day to test and monitor only just to be overeating and stuffing my face with things i shouldn't....only to spite him i guess...its bull. i know i don't have an Amazing diet and sometimes i slip because i am human and i am a pregnant mother with cravings but more often then not i am only eating things that are good for me and the baby , trying to drink 8 glass's of water and lots of milk. its not so easy when you don't have the means to buy food and the cost of fucking medical supply. i think that is mainly what is pissing me off, today i could not buy my insulin until the visit to the doc's office was over and i told them the truth i had run out the day before and my husband wasn't getting paid til today so there was nothing i could do, so my fasting blood sugar was really high 145 to be exact. The doctor got mad at me like i was buying doughnuts and cake or something along the lines instead of getting my insulin. i manage out money i know where it goes and we just bought a fucking car if i want doughnuts i would have to make them from scratch if i had the ingredients laying about.
so any how making a long story a bit shorter he took it upon himself to call my insurance and the pharmacy to see why i am paying so much in all my supplies. Good for him ...he can deal with all that bullshit. I already called and they said to me " well its only 25$"....yea per fucking thing. not to mention 8 to 12 $ a bag of needles..so fuck them and if he can do any better good for him i will be happy to accept it. we are thinking of seeing if i can go and apply for medical for just me and the baby ...that might cover some of the co-pays...my doctor acts as if its all a matter of me not spending right and though when we are face to face he acts like he understands when we are not hes just getting on my nerves. bah... he really is nice and i do like that i get to see him when i go to the office and its not just some nurse that takes down all my questions and i never get any answers. just latly when i am running into some snags it seems he's trying to find a way to blame me like its my personal fault and not the fault of the way things go unpredictable when you are PRE diabetic not just GD. i know things have been going the way he wanted it to for the past 7 months, but he should know that the baby can develop a resistance and fuck that all up.
Aside from that things are going well, shes moving so much i wake up from my light sleeping. been having really odd and sometimes bad dreams ...worse then what they used to be since some have me waking up with tears in my eyes and i can only half remember what for . The baby shower is on April 19 and i have been busting my ass to get things ready for that...and i don't want to hear anything from anyone about " o blah blah some one should be doing it for you blah blah thats not tradition" seems a lot of things don't go the way they used to in the 1030's don't it. so ST FU! <3
technically my grandma is the host but shes blind so i have to do everything...takes a bit of the fun out of it. the only other people that can do it are not reliable at the moment...to much crap to go into about living states away or just not having a baby loving party tossing cell in their body.so at least i know that if i am doing it ...it will get done. i am tired of flakes and know it alls. people need to come though or just keep their fucking opinions to themselves.....hehe I'm moody i better go.
a girly!
We are not 100% on names just yet so i am not going to post it until i am sure. Lately the Doctor has been getting on my last nerve, acting as if i have been going out of my way to raise my Blood sugars just to mess with him. i have been trying my damndest to keep it under control. what is the point to poking my fingers almost 5 times a day to test and monitor only just to be overeating and stuffing my face with things i shouldn't....only to spite him i guess...its bull. i know i don't have an Amazing diet and sometimes i slip because i am human and i am a pregnant mother with cravings but more often then not i am only eating things that are good for me and the baby , trying to drink 8 glass's of water and lots of milk. its not so easy when you don't have the means to buy food and the cost of fucking medical supply. i think that is mainly what is pissing me off, today i could not buy my insulin until the visit to the doc's office was over and i told them the truth i had run out the day before and my husband wasn't getting paid til today so there was nothing i could do, so my fasting blood sugar was really high 145 to be exact. The doctor got mad at me like i was buying doughnuts and cake or something along the lines instead of getting my insulin. i manage out money i know where it goes and we just bought a fucking car if i want doughnuts i would have to make them from scratch if i had the ingredients laying about.
so any how making a long story a bit shorter he took it upon himself to call my insurance and the pharmacy to see why i am paying so much in all my supplies. Good for him ...he can deal with all that bullshit. I already called and they said to me " well its only 25$"....yea per fucking thing. not to mention 8 to 12 $ a bag of needles..so fuck them and if he can do any better good for him i will be happy to accept it. we are thinking of seeing if i can go and apply for medical for just me and the baby ...that might cover some of the co-pays...my doctor acts as if its all a matter of me not spending right and though when we are face to face he acts like he understands when we are not hes just getting on my nerves. bah... he really is nice and i do like that i get to see him when i go to the office and its not just some nurse that takes down all my questions and i never get any answers. just latly when i am running into some snags it seems he's trying to find a way to blame me like its my personal fault and not the fault of the way things go unpredictable when you are PRE diabetic not just GD. i know things have been going the way he wanted it to for the past 7 months, but he should know that the baby can develop a resistance and fuck that all up.
Aside from that things are going well, shes moving so much i wake up from my light sleeping. been having really odd and sometimes bad dreams ...worse then what they used to be since some have me waking up with tears in my eyes and i can only half remember what for . The baby shower is on April 19 and i have been busting my ass to get things ready for that...and i don't want to hear anything from anyone about " o blah blah some one should be doing it for you blah blah thats not tradition" seems a lot of things don't go the way they used to in the 1030's don't it. so ST FU! <3
technically my grandma is the host but shes blind so i have to do everything...takes a bit of the fun out of it. the only other people that can do it are not reliable at the moment...to much crap to go into about living states away or just not having a baby loving party tossing cell in their body.so at least i know that if i am doing it ...it will get done. i am tired of flakes and know it alls. people need to come though or just keep their fucking opinions to themselves.....hehe I'm moody i better go.