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I'm having friend angst right now.
The kind where I really miss my friends from home, and the kind where I feel like my friends here at school aren't as close to me as they once were.
Like, last semester was perfect. Liz and I were as close as two newish friends could be. We visited eachother's respective homes, had many adventures, many laughs. We're alike in a lot of ways, and not so much in others, but that's what made our friendship interesting. It felt like the kind of comfortable, happy friendship that would last far beyond the reaches of our college grounds and years. Our duo grew into a small group when we started inviting others to our monthly Sushi Nights, and then into a bigger group when respective friends introduced us to others, and so on. It was fun, and it's always lovely to have many friends... but I miss that close companionship we shared at the beginning. Now, Liz has discovered another "best friend", and while I can't blame her, it saddens me. I feel like I'm losing her, and I'm not sure whether to fight for it, or just let it happen. And if I were to fight, how would I do so without alienating Liz, or making her feel obligated?
I miss Jack and Mandy and Chelsea. With them, I never feel as if there's a question hovering over our friendships. But we're all at our respective schools, and apart far more often than we are together. I wish I could find that same feeling in someone here at Redlands, and I know it takes time to build up relationships like that, but I just wish...
That and I have a nasty cold and I've been stuck to my bed all weekend. Except for the uber-long first read-through of Muse of Fire (which is AMAZING btw), and a few staggered meals.
I better pep up; I've a long week ahead of me!
The kind where I really miss my friends from home, and the kind where I feel like my friends here at school aren't as close to me as they once were.
Like, last semester was perfect. Liz and I were as close as two newish friends could be. We visited eachother's respective homes, had many adventures, many laughs. We're alike in a lot of ways, and not so much in others, but that's what made our friendship interesting. It felt like the kind of comfortable, happy friendship that would last far beyond the reaches of our college grounds and years. Our duo grew into a small group when we started inviting others to our monthly Sushi Nights, and then into a bigger group when respective friends introduced us to others, and so on. It was fun, and it's always lovely to have many friends... but I miss that close companionship we shared at the beginning. Now, Liz has discovered another "best friend", and while I can't blame her, it saddens me. I feel like I'm losing her, and I'm not sure whether to fight for it, or just let it happen. And if I were to fight, how would I do so without alienating Liz, or making her feel obligated?
I miss Jack and Mandy and Chelsea. With them, I never feel as if there's a question hovering over our friendships. But we're all at our respective schools, and apart far more often than we are together. I wish I could find that same feeling in someone here at Redlands, and I know it takes time to build up relationships like that, but I just wish...
That and I have a nasty cold and I've been stuck to my bed all weekend. Except for the uber-long first read-through of Muse of Fire (which is AMAZING btw), and a few staggered meals.
I better pep up; I've a long week ahead of me!