soo.....been a while
well not sure wer to start,since theyrs always big gaps between me writing in this these days......
Lots happend recently...mainly relationship stuff...and not good stuff either :(
TBH i dont no how it all got this far ,i mean it was all so gr8..(or so i thought) i just dont get why people think they can just mess with other people and think thats fine!
Also poses the question of trust...surely if u trust someone...then u trust them... ful stop.
or is it a case of u can trust them, but u dont?
or u can trust them with certain things and certain people....in certain situations? i honestly dont no anymore.
Any way most of this wont make sense .....but my heads all over the place so writing seems the only thing do to to help.
To be honest ive changed a lot over the past year or so....in certain ways anyway....my point of view on the future had changed a lot,especially where relationships are concerned, but suddenly i think im back to where i started, being miserable,alone...the way it should be...or rather im back to the place where i feel safe. surely im aloud some happyness for a change?
I suppose im gonna hve to struggle on one more time.....not like its new to me.
Maybe i just set myself up for disapointment :S
Well i have no idea....i just wish people would mind their own buisness...cuz if the situation was reversed....trust me..ppl woul dbe far from happy....they should learn that ,and quick!
Any way i spose ive got some good stuff to be said, have my college interview on thursday :) so im just gonna focus on that and keep on going.
Wednesday 13 gig 2mora nite aswell,so just gona go along n try n have some fun for the night,altho it'll be filled with little kids thinking that they no everything....oh yass.
I really have to just get away and take a long break from everything and everyone...
its so hard to keep the faith when you have none left.
"You all stare but youll never see, theres something inside me" "purity"
Lots happend recently...mainly relationship stuff...and not good stuff either :(
TBH i dont no how it all got this far ,i mean it was all so gr8..(or so i thought) i just dont get why people think they can just mess with other people and think thats fine!
Also poses the question of trust...surely if u trust someone...then u trust them... ful stop.
or is it a case of u can trust them, but u dont?
or u can trust them with certain things and certain people....in certain situations? i honestly dont no anymore.
Any way most of this wont make sense .....but my heads all over the place so writing seems the only thing do to to help.
To be honest ive changed a lot over the past year or so....in certain ways anyway....my point of view on the future had changed a lot,especially where relationships are concerned, but suddenly i think im back to where i started, being miserable,alone...the way it should be...or rather im back to the place where i feel safe. surely im aloud some happyness for a change?
I suppose im gonna hve to struggle on one more time.....not like its new to me.
Maybe i just set myself up for disapointment :S
Well i have no idea....i just wish people would mind their own buisness...cuz if the situation was reversed....trust me..ppl woul dbe far from happy....they should learn that ,and quick!
Any way i spose ive got some good stuff to be said, have my college interview on thursday :) so im just gonna focus on that and keep on going.
Wednesday 13 gig 2mora nite aswell,so just gona go along n try n have some fun for the night,altho it'll be filled with little kids thinking that they no everything....oh yass.
I really have to just get away and take a long break from everything and everyone...
its so hard to keep the faith when you have none left.
"You all stare but youll never see, theres something inside me" "purity"