Past few days...
1/7/08
I got caught up in myself with too much to really update. It was the first day back to school on this day. It was actually “fun” in some sense because I actually got to see some of my old friends who just returned back from alternative school.
Lisa S. really hasn’t changed that much still tall and skinny. Lol She wears make up now which I thought would never happen because she used to be such a tom boy.
I met a few new people, Bruce, Lisa’s boyfriend which she met in alternative school (what a promising relationship!) Their friend, Ricky, actually… he asked for my phone number right off… so I wouldn’t really say I met him. He’s nice, a change, and everyone is different from the usual drama.
My writing is getting more “active” meaning I’ve been scribing down small lyrics on everything! On school folders, binders, worksheets, napkins, anything that I can at that moment; I guess Rei leaving actually somewhat helped me…. ‘Lest with these things...
He pushes me more. He makes me feel so pathetic that it becomes a good thing that he does it. I’ve been actually practicing again. I never did want to stop trying to be a musician and he made me question what I loved more. After all, he was my “first love” Right?
Takashi ~ I think he finds Rei… a challenge to him in some ways… He isn’t. Takashi is caring and loving to me. He makes me laugh and smile. Rei, he doesn’t do that type of stuff; he’s always too stressed for me.
A lot of things have changed and they’ll change more and more each day I don’t want to lose or get lost again. I don’t expect you to understand this, unless you’re like this. And to you who are, Why don’t we start a damn revolution. Lol~!
Love,
What ever the hell you know me as.
1/8/08
People makes me very very very mad~
I wonder if the mad hatter ever felt this way~
I wonder where I can fit a line in a song that I figured up~ “ Down pours of acrimony falls upon me” Silly line, isn’t it? Lol <3
1/9/08
I haven’t done anything today; I haven’t practiced or even worked out much. I don’t feel good, and I actually think I have a kidney infection. I’ve spent my day just studying. My grades fell some. Mostly in Algebra and Spanish. This week’s Spanish test will be simple, the words this week is more similar to Italian words, which I already know.
I spoke to Rei again tonight, he says that he needed “cool down time” That makes me laugh. I just really don’t understand why he says he likes me then turn around and act like that to me. How can you tell someone that you loved that they need to “fuck off” and that they’re a “bitch”. I’ll say what I am honest about to him, “You are my medicine”
Which reminds me, Takashi hasn’t emailed me. I miss him!
1/10/08
Skipping school… not a sport to be proud of, but I’m really tired and I think I am getting sick again. Martin is asking me what I’m doing, because he heard the little kid on the Berry song by Dir en grey. His English is getting SO much better it’s very impressive.
I got caught up in myself with too much to really update. It was the first day back to school on this day. It was actually “fun” in some sense because I actually got to see some of my old friends who just returned back from alternative school.
Lisa S. really hasn’t changed that much still tall and skinny. Lol She wears make up now which I thought would never happen because she used to be such a tom boy.
I met a few new people, Bruce, Lisa’s boyfriend which she met in alternative school (what a promising relationship!) Their friend, Ricky, actually… he asked for my phone number right off… so I wouldn’t really say I met him. He’s nice, a change, and everyone is different from the usual drama.
My writing is getting more “active” meaning I’ve been scribing down small lyrics on everything! On school folders, binders, worksheets, napkins, anything that I can at that moment; I guess Rei leaving actually somewhat helped me…. ‘Lest with these things...
He pushes me more. He makes me feel so pathetic that it becomes a good thing that he does it. I’ve been actually practicing again. I never did want to stop trying to be a musician and he made me question what I loved more. After all, he was my “first love” Right?
Takashi ~ I think he finds Rei… a challenge to him in some ways… He isn’t. Takashi is caring and loving to me. He makes me laugh and smile. Rei, he doesn’t do that type of stuff; he’s always too stressed for me.
A lot of things have changed and they’ll change more and more each day I don’t want to lose or get lost again. I don’t expect you to understand this, unless you’re like this. And to you who are, Why don’t we start a damn revolution. Lol~!
Love,
What ever the hell you know me as.
1/8/08
People makes me very very very mad~
I wonder if the mad hatter ever felt this way~
I wonder where I can fit a line in a song that I figured up~ “ Down pours of acrimony falls upon me” Silly line, isn’t it? Lol <3
1/9/08
I haven’t done anything today; I haven’t practiced or even worked out much. I don’t feel good, and I actually think I have a kidney infection. I’ve spent my day just studying. My grades fell some. Mostly in Algebra and Spanish. This week’s Spanish test will be simple, the words this week is more similar to Italian words, which I already know.
I spoke to Rei again tonight, he says that he needed “cool down time” That makes me laugh. I just really don’t understand why he says he likes me then turn around and act like that to me. How can you tell someone that you loved that they need to “fuck off” and that they’re a “bitch”. I’ll say what I am honest about to him, “You are my medicine”
Which reminds me, Takashi hasn’t emailed me. I miss him!
1/10/08
Skipping school… not a sport to be proud of, but I’m really tired and I think I am getting sick again. Martin is asking me what I’m doing, because he heard the little kid on the Berry song by Dir en grey. His English is getting SO much better it’s very impressive.