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it honestly is nights like these where i just feel wonderful. the day was horrible, but the night was WONDERFUL. spring is close at hand, and you can tell by the weather. i need to get my spade and shit out so i can start my garden, which i'm so excited about. i think i could possibly have some summer jobs lining up. things could possibly be looking up. more than anything, for the longest time, i'm happy. i really am.
it's too clichéd to say that's it because i'm in love, which i am, but i think that has a lot to do with it. for so long i was so used to buddha's bs and him treating like bs. jeremy is so different, and he cares, and i love it and i love him. and it's so childish of me, but i've broken so many rules i'd lain out for myself in these situations thati've scared myself. i took buddha back so many times, i let him run over me, i gave more than i received. jeremy and i tend to balance ourselves out. it amazes me that we even have as much in common as we do.
but also, the reason i'm happy, is because school is coming closer to an end. i'm about to take the graduation test [easy] and i'm about to be a senior. and my senior year is going to be so full of mostly bs classes that it'll be a breeze. no lunch, no worries. there's no reason to even be sitting in there b/c the food is so disgusting. it's more along the lines of the fact that i'm excited about everything that's laying out at my feet. i have so many different things looking me in the face, and i'm glad.
i have been having crazy dreams though, which isn't a good thing b/c it's leaving me unrested.
overall... i'd say things could possibly be taking a turn for good, hopefully.
OH! and alexx.. he's an imp. how crazy is THAT?!
it's too clichéd to say that's it because i'm in love, which i am, but i think that has a lot to do with it. for so long i was so used to buddha's bs and him treating like bs. jeremy is so different, and he cares, and i love it and i love him. and it's so childish of me, but i've broken so many rules i'd lain out for myself in these situations thati've scared myself. i took buddha back so many times, i let him run over me, i gave more than i received. jeremy and i tend to balance ourselves out. it amazes me that we even have as much in common as we do.
but also, the reason i'm happy, is because school is coming closer to an end. i'm about to take the graduation test [easy] and i'm about to be a senior. and my senior year is going to be so full of mostly bs classes that it'll be a breeze. no lunch, no worries. there's no reason to even be sitting in there b/c the food is so disgusting. it's more along the lines of the fact that i'm excited about everything that's laying out at my feet. i have so many different things looking me in the face, and i'm glad.
i have been having crazy dreams though, which isn't a good thing b/c it's leaving me unrested.
overall... i'd say things could possibly be taking a turn for good, hopefully.
OH! and alexx.. he's an imp. how crazy is THAT?!