long fucker
Okay let me clerify some things. I was surrounded with So much drama today, I seriously wanted to kill so many people today, I really felt such a hatrid, one so fucking old I seriously cannot recall such an anger, Arjay could not compare, going to therapy could NOT compare. Okay well like…
LN is someone I fucking seriously cannot see or even imagine my life without, she keeps me in line she keeps me alive and she keeps me smiling and feeling things I should be feeling. I give her what I can. I do what I can for her, I know nothing I can possibly give would ever really matter to her because she is like a person who gets everything she wants, she is wealthy and lives a descent life, and I do all I can to see her like. Flip when I get her things If I can, but like okay today she used a puppet to fucking fuck up my entire fucking day, she took a single day where I actually looked foreward to sitting down and feasting on chineses food. The ONE thing that brings me more joy than anything, seriously I look back on my life and when I’ve been the lowest of low angriest of angry I would find some money somehow sell my body a few times and I would find Chinese food, and I would just relax, and gorge, I seriously LOVE chinese food. Okay so like I was SO looking foreward to all of this I was all excited running around the halls after 4th period wondering where my daddy was and Bree and Kristina, and like I found them got money and like went outside to see if they could help, and like im so filled with anticipation I see Alyse and Ln so I set my backpack down and tell them im getting Chinese, and well like they see this gurl named Natalie (now some info on her)
Okay I met Natalie a while back through shane, and like she is pretty cool and she is one of my not so close friends just a new person to talk to. Someone to get to know a bit, and LN and Alyse cannot stand her, at ALL…..okay so LN just bitches and Bitches about how she hates her..along with Alyse, now I defenetly can say that I was no pissed at all. I have my opinions on all people and im sure they do also, considering they told me to my face as baltently as ever, of course I once again didn’t kare, brushed it off like nothing, and so I was wondering, I like how they can do that, and I LOVE how they do so, But then when it gets carried away and it’s right in front of her so fucking what, I get pissed, I don’t go over to Alyse’s friends and fucking tell alyse how much I fucking hate them with them right next to her. The same goes for LN but I doubt she would really care, LN is the kind of person who can kill a person and just not care, she could rip someone limb from limb and not think twice about it, I LOVe that about LN. I LOVE LN!. I fucking look up to LN she makes me feel sane, and she makes me feel like my life is worth living, making fun of those to keep myself happy is what I learn from her, LN teaches me something EVERY day, she spoils me and it makes me happy, even when it’s just a surprise like Chinese food order, I seriously like never thought LN would do something like that for me. Anybody giving me something even the least bit considerate earns a place with me, But LN is the ONLY person who has taken it this far, She has defenetly made a fucking difference in my life, I would take a fucking shot gun blow to the fucking forhead, I would rip off the nails on my fingers and toes and replace them with rose thorns if I had to…
Okay well like LN despises her at this point and SO does Alyse….Alyse..Okay well Alyse is someone who has most of the time come to me for some of her questions and I love Lyse, I like her a lot. But seriously Today. Bieng the puppet for LN and working on some of her OWN emotion I have lost ALL respect for her. I would expect LN to joke and rip up an ID little shit like that, Psychological messages. Shit like that, What Lyse did was To fucking Far, The books are all torn up, her CD’s and shit are all gone and her back pack was brand new and LN knows how much of a fucking gentle I have to be, I cannot be an asshole to people who don’t deserve it, people who are annoying deserve a slap. Not a fucking elephant cock up there ass. Lyse can officially be Labled One of the Reasons I would Wish to Move, One of the Reasons I should go on a rampage,One more reason to Hate People., Why not LN you guys might Ask, Because I KNOW (My table isn’t ALL that stupid to not tell me..idiots) and I know that LN didn’t do anything. It was ALL alyse. And I know that I could expect so much from others, I could expect them to fucking shit in her pack, but seriously having her stuff DESTROYED, and having to force someone like me pay for all of it, I seriously felt SO bad, she sayed it was okay that her friends didn;’t like her and that she was happy that I would keep talking to her no matter what they sayed, I had to put up with this becuas eof lyse, I was put thru a shit day , I was made to feel like a total and complet asshole, I only like feeling that way when I am the one kicking ass, I seriously HATE Alyse, I want to Destroy her….I have Little to No More time for this shit, IF LN can live with the fact that I hang out with a bunch of ANNOYING gurls EVERYDAY she would be able to know that I am gunna add one more, the whole fuckign table has something against LN, and What the fuck am I gunna do follow what they say?,.
I fucking defend LN. Lyse should feel like muther fucking shit, She lied to me First off. To me and my friends, About how she should just give us her back pack back and all so this shit would have NEVER had to escilate so high. Because right now. I am SO pissed at Lyse I would want nothing more than to get away from her. I would want nothing more than for her to just leave me the fuck alone!. I want her to muther fucking get hit by a car. I want her house to be ripped to shreds. I want everything she has to be burnt and then I want her to be thrown into a jail cell nude with 5 sex deprived women who desire freshmeat!…I Right now am NOT feeling like an asshole like most of you fuckers are reading probably think I am. I can surly say I have NO remorse for All the pains and stings that Alyse goes thru for the REST of her life. It takes one thing like this to curse themselves with the doubt of a friendship and doubt of mind, Feed me once with a question and it will stay, I will ALWAYS question myself now. Lyse can fucking die. And if she died tomorrow. I would put a smurk on my face and only sease to understand the feeling of a brighter day.
So tell me , What am I to do about this situation?….
Well first off. I have to pay for ALL of her books…which is a shitload of money, considering I am moving soon and I already have no money, it’s gunna be a fucking logn while before I eat again. I can kiss my birthday present from my parents gone, I can surley say that I have to replace everything. Out of my fucking heart. What little I have im being FORCED to give away. When I finally think im going to have a good day the two people I would never expect to fuck me over this big do it and just like a boot to the face I fucking stood up and im going to make sure Lyse knows how much dirt she stained me with. I am NEVER going to be abel to look at her without thinking about how muther fucking digusted I am with her. And the fucking Ironic thing about this whole situation is that all of my friends helped look for Natlaies back pack. And it was funny how the friends that HATE Natalie, have sympathy, and this has only driven others to care.to think it took the fuckers that hate her most to turn the table into accecpting her.
I wanted to cry after lunch. I wanted to sit in a corner and cry. I got Fucked over. By LN. seriously, LN has NEVER done something like this to me before. I cannot deny that I LOVe LN and that I know she wants an apology I think she might have to wait a while for that. Because she knows that I respect her more than I do my own parents. She knows that I care for her than I do with my own health. I would save my money for food everyday to get LN something nice or something even worthy of recognition. She does somewhat deserve one, I love LN and I LOVE how she can tell me who she hates. I only object to the fact that she did this. Sure she can yell at me all she wants. But seriously. Wow..She is my fucking BEST friend, I have NEVER had a friend like her before. And it’s only situations like this that make me want to sit in a corner and just not talk to anybody and ot have friends to deal with. And not have friends at all. Like being one of those creepy people with abook in there face and rolly backpack.. LN is the only person I would ever want to forgive me for anything. I would officially like to say now that I am not mad at LN. just disappointed. And she will probably take offense on this WHOLE entrée.
As she much well should be noticing. She has to realize how I feel ebcuas ei know how she felt. She never seems to kare and that’s LN. she seems to be bitter but that’s LN she is my best friend. She doesn’t have to recognize me as a person . yet alone a friend. But she does. . some of the people I consider friends consider me a guy they talk to and not even a friend. WTF is up with that?.
And I would officially like to state that after I press enter I HATE Alyse Mginnis. I Hate her more than I hate Arjay. Or My Thereapist. Or My Cock Roach of a grandfather. I hate her more than that shit that gets stuck in your teeth after popcorn. I officially HATE Alyse Mginnis. Here I go.
Turning the page on another fuckin day,I have to get to doing my homework to work off all of natalies shit.
I first off am someone who needs love I need someone to wrap there arms around me and tel me how fun I am I NEED this. I lived with it for 3 years of my fucking life. I can barley remember anything before nikki. She defenetly warped me into this. And I do consider it faulty. I do NOT want to have to rely on others to keep me happy. But I am a stingey fuck and I ask for little things. I don’t ask for people to like me, I don’t ask for much. I just hope that I can sort this out. Or just close my eyes and forget it for a while. Because this post was to long
And my frausteration has not submitted. I think a few needles thru the skin would help. Maybe a new labret piercing. Or a couple more eyebrow piercings. I don’t fucking know. I just need to end this. And I want it ended now.
LN is someone I fucking seriously cannot see or even imagine my life without, she keeps me in line she keeps me alive and she keeps me smiling and feeling things I should be feeling. I give her what I can. I do what I can for her, I know nothing I can possibly give would ever really matter to her because she is like a person who gets everything she wants, she is wealthy and lives a descent life, and I do all I can to see her like. Flip when I get her things If I can, but like okay today she used a puppet to fucking fuck up my entire fucking day, she took a single day where I actually looked foreward to sitting down and feasting on chineses food. The ONE thing that brings me more joy than anything, seriously I look back on my life and when I’ve been the lowest of low angriest of angry I would find some money somehow sell my body a few times and I would find Chinese food, and I would just relax, and gorge, I seriously LOVE chinese food. Okay so like I was SO looking foreward to all of this I was all excited running around the halls after 4th period wondering where my daddy was and Bree and Kristina, and like I found them got money and like went outside to see if they could help, and like im so filled with anticipation I see Alyse and Ln so I set my backpack down and tell them im getting Chinese, and well like they see this gurl named Natalie (now some info on her)
Okay I met Natalie a while back through shane, and like she is pretty cool and she is one of my not so close friends just a new person to talk to. Someone to get to know a bit, and LN and Alyse cannot stand her, at ALL…..okay so LN just bitches and Bitches about how she hates her..along with Alyse, now I defenetly can say that I was no pissed at all. I have my opinions on all people and im sure they do also, considering they told me to my face as baltently as ever, of course I once again didn’t kare, brushed it off like nothing, and so I was wondering, I like how they can do that, and I LOVE how they do so, But then when it gets carried away and it’s right in front of her so fucking what, I get pissed, I don’t go over to Alyse’s friends and fucking tell alyse how much I fucking hate them with them right next to her. The same goes for LN but I doubt she would really care, LN is the kind of person who can kill a person and just not care, she could rip someone limb from limb and not think twice about it, I LOVe that about LN. I LOVE LN!. I fucking look up to LN she makes me feel sane, and she makes me feel like my life is worth living, making fun of those to keep myself happy is what I learn from her, LN teaches me something EVERY day, she spoils me and it makes me happy, even when it’s just a surprise like Chinese food order, I seriously like never thought LN would do something like that for me. Anybody giving me something even the least bit considerate earns a place with me, But LN is the ONLY person who has taken it this far, She has defenetly made a fucking difference in my life, I would take a fucking shot gun blow to the fucking forhead, I would rip off the nails on my fingers and toes and replace them with rose thorns if I had to…
Okay well like LN despises her at this point and SO does Alyse….Alyse..Okay well Alyse is someone who has most of the time come to me for some of her questions and I love Lyse, I like her a lot. But seriously Today. Bieng the puppet for LN and working on some of her OWN emotion I have lost ALL respect for her. I would expect LN to joke and rip up an ID little shit like that, Psychological messages. Shit like that, What Lyse did was To fucking Far, The books are all torn up, her CD’s and shit are all gone and her back pack was brand new and LN knows how much of a fucking gentle I have to be, I cannot be an asshole to people who don’t deserve it, people who are annoying deserve a slap. Not a fucking elephant cock up there ass. Lyse can officially be Labled One of the Reasons I would Wish to Move, One of the Reasons I should go on a rampage,One more reason to Hate People., Why not LN you guys might Ask, Because I KNOW (My table isn’t ALL that stupid to not tell me..idiots) and I know that LN didn’t do anything. It was ALL alyse. And I know that I could expect so much from others, I could expect them to fucking shit in her pack, but seriously having her stuff DESTROYED, and having to force someone like me pay for all of it, I seriously felt SO bad, she sayed it was okay that her friends didn;’t like her and that she was happy that I would keep talking to her no matter what they sayed, I had to put up with this becuas eof lyse, I was put thru a shit day , I was made to feel like a total and complet asshole, I only like feeling that way when I am the one kicking ass, I seriously HATE Alyse, I want to Destroy her….I have Little to No More time for this shit, IF LN can live with the fact that I hang out with a bunch of ANNOYING gurls EVERYDAY she would be able to know that I am gunna add one more, the whole fuckign table has something against LN, and What the fuck am I gunna do follow what they say?,.
I fucking defend LN. Lyse should feel like muther fucking shit, She lied to me First off. To me and my friends, About how she should just give us her back pack back and all so this shit would have NEVER had to escilate so high. Because right now. I am SO pissed at Lyse I would want nothing more than to get away from her. I would want nothing more than for her to just leave me the fuck alone!. I want her to muther fucking get hit by a car. I want her house to be ripped to shreds. I want everything she has to be burnt and then I want her to be thrown into a jail cell nude with 5 sex deprived women who desire freshmeat!…I Right now am NOT feeling like an asshole like most of you fuckers are reading probably think I am. I can surly say I have NO remorse for All the pains and stings that Alyse goes thru for the REST of her life. It takes one thing like this to curse themselves with the doubt of a friendship and doubt of mind, Feed me once with a question and it will stay, I will ALWAYS question myself now. Lyse can fucking die. And if she died tomorrow. I would put a smurk on my face and only sease to understand the feeling of a brighter day.
So tell me , What am I to do about this situation?….
Well first off. I have to pay for ALL of her books…which is a shitload of money, considering I am moving soon and I already have no money, it’s gunna be a fucking logn while before I eat again. I can kiss my birthday present from my parents gone, I can surley say that I have to replace everything. Out of my fucking heart. What little I have im being FORCED to give away. When I finally think im going to have a good day the two people I would never expect to fuck me over this big do it and just like a boot to the face I fucking stood up and im going to make sure Lyse knows how much dirt she stained me with. I am NEVER going to be abel to look at her without thinking about how muther fucking digusted I am with her. And the fucking Ironic thing about this whole situation is that all of my friends helped look for Natlaies back pack. And it was funny how the friends that HATE Natalie, have sympathy, and this has only driven others to care.to think it took the fuckers that hate her most to turn the table into accecpting her.
I wanted to cry after lunch. I wanted to sit in a corner and cry. I got Fucked over. By LN. seriously, LN has NEVER done something like this to me before. I cannot deny that I LOVe LN and that I know she wants an apology I think she might have to wait a while for that. Because she knows that I respect her more than I do my own parents. She knows that I care for her than I do with my own health. I would save my money for food everyday to get LN something nice or something even worthy of recognition. She does somewhat deserve one, I love LN and I LOVE how she can tell me who she hates. I only object to the fact that she did this. Sure she can yell at me all she wants. But seriously. Wow..She is my fucking BEST friend, I have NEVER had a friend like her before. And it’s only situations like this that make me want to sit in a corner and just not talk to anybody and ot have friends to deal with. And not have friends at all. Like being one of those creepy people with abook in there face and rolly backpack.. LN is the only person I would ever want to forgive me for anything. I would officially like to say now that I am not mad at LN. just disappointed. And she will probably take offense on this WHOLE entrée.
As she much well should be noticing. She has to realize how I feel ebcuas ei know how she felt. She never seems to kare and that’s LN. she seems to be bitter but that’s LN she is my best friend. She doesn’t have to recognize me as a person . yet alone a friend. But she does. . some of the people I consider friends consider me a guy they talk to and not even a friend. WTF is up with that?.
And I would officially like to state that after I press enter I HATE Alyse Mginnis. I Hate her more than I hate Arjay. Or My Thereapist. Or My Cock Roach of a grandfather. I hate her more than that shit that gets stuck in your teeth after popcorn. I officially HATE Alyse Mginnis. Here I go.
Turning the page on another fuckin day,I have to get to doing my homework to work off all of natalies shit.
I first off am someone who needs love I need someone to wrap there arms around me and tel me how fun I am I NEED this. I lived with it for 3 years of my fucking life. I can barley remember anything before nikki. She defenetly warped me into this. And I do consider it faulty. I do NOT want to have to rely on others to keep me happy. But I am a stingey fuck and I ask for little things. I don’t ask for people to like me, I don’t ask for much. I just hope that I can sort this out. Or just close my eyes and forget it for a while. Because this post was to long
And my frausteration has not submitted. I think a few needles thru the skin would help. Maybe a new labret piercing. Or a couple more eyebrow piercings. I don’t fucking know. I just need to end this. And I want it ended now.