anxity attack
7:45p.m. i jump in the shower.. it wonderful, feels good. ten minutes into it my heart starts beating really fast and i get light headed. so i make it cooler, i'm like whatever. so i hurry up n get out n get clothed n ready to go out. i'm hyper it feels, excited kind of. but yet anxious... very anxious. i'm driving n i keep switching from song to song cuz none were making me feel good. n when the people would start talking i would immediately change it. i realize i'm having an anxity attack. i get to my friends house n i'm extremely tense. i sit there not moving, wide eyed. my breathing is slim n quick. i ask my friend to try n help me relax, so we lay down. by now its 9:05 and i'm just having the worst anxity attack. i've had so many in my life i'm pretty good at calming myself down but i couldn't this time. the feeling only kept getting stronger and stronger! any time i took a deep breath (as directed by my friend) i felt the anxity build up inside of me. like it was never going to go away. i couldn't relax i couldn't calm down. the feeling wouldn't go away n felt like it was never going too. 20 minutes later i finally relax alittle.. and i start crying, i start crying really hard because it scared me. to feel like that n to have it feel like it was never going to end. it scared the shit out of me. n into my crying it came right back.. the crying and anxity went on for another 15 minutes. i start to feel alittle better and i really have to use the bathroom. i sit up really slowly n i get extremely lightheaded, i start to fall back onto the bed; my friend grabs me before my head hits the wall. i just layed down again n made myself relax.... it was another long while before i could get up n walk to the bathroom. i never ever want to feel like that again!