Dark sky threatens me daily (makes me alter and change)

[osborn_heiress]

It looked like Angel was busy with the children and really? Could I be more bored? It almost made me wish that I had done nothing. That I hadn't hit my mother or walked out of Wolfram and Hart with Angel and little Faith in tow. Maybe if I'd done nothing and stayed I could have talked to the other Angel without a couple of whining brats in the way

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[osborn_heiress]

My father. The biggest sucker in the world for his girls and I knew that I was his favorite girl of all. I mean, come on. He loved my mother but I was his only daughter. Apple of his eye. There was no way in hell that he was going to take Buffy's word over mine for even a second. So I just kept crying and Dad kept putting the tissues in front of me, trying to get me to calm down and tell him what happened. How the bad man made Mommy all mean to me. I wanted to snicker and smirk at that but I didn't. I was curious. I wanted to know more about Angel and the best way to find that out was to get my Father good and fired up in Angel's direction. Because then he'd talk, and then I'd know.

"I don't know." I sniffled, wadding up tissues in my hand as I tried to calm myself down enought to tell him my little story. "I was at Wolfram and Hart with Mom and then Connor was there and there was some other girl and...I don't know what happened. There was a bright light because we knocked something over and then things got really different. Mom started acting really strangely and then she attacked me! I didn't know what else to do. Oh God, I hit her, Dad. I hit her really hard but I had to escape! I thought she was going to kill me and Angel was just gonna let her. He might have done it on purpose and...I'm just so confused."

I started sobbing again, this time trying desperately to wipe up the tears spilling down my cheeks. Glancing up unsurely into my Father's pale eyes. That was when I knew. He'd bought it hook line and sinker.

"I got here as fast as I could. I didn't wanna hurt Mom, but I didn't wanna let her hurt me either."

[military_boy]

Everything was coming unravelled and it seemed that our little family was in the center of it all. My head was already swimming as she talked about Wolfram & Hart, why would Buffy take Lexi there? Damn it. My eyes widened slightly as Lexi told me she hit Buffy. Hard. Tears pouring down her face showed me that she was really shaken up by all of this. She came to the right place, home to me where I could think reasonably and take action. She looked at me with those eyes and tears still streaming and I realized then that I'd do anything for this kid. My kid. My baby girl.

"It's alright, Lexi." I said as I stood up and pulled her up and wrapped my arms around her. Tall enough for my chin to rest on top of her head as I hugged her reassuringly. I set my hands on her shoulders and moved her back from me. "Where is your Mom now? Do you know? You came here first right? You didn't go anywhere else, I need to know. If she's been alone for a long time with Angel... if it is Angel and not Angelus, she'll need help."

Damn it Buffy. If it was Angelus and not Angel we were more than screwed, there was no way that I could go in and try to save her by myself. I'd have to call for back up. Wait, bright light?

"You said there was a bright light, what do you mean bright light? And who was this other girl?" I asked the question but knew the answer. "Faith. Shit. Lexi it's alright your Mom won't be upset that you hit her if she was acting strangely but we need to get to her. You need to learn a lot of things and I'm going to tell you everything, I can't go on like this."

Telling her everything was a risk but it had to be done. I wasn't willing to keep her in the dark when the stakes just rose so high. Where was Buffy? Let her be okay.

[osborn_heiress]

Dad was hugging me and I was trying my best to hold the smirk back that wanted to stay permanantly plasted across my lips. Was he really this much of a sucker? All I had to do was shed a few tears and he was putty in my hands? Well, he'd always been that way. Daddy was the one to cry to if you needed something, Mom was the one to go to if you needed....to get yelled at. I didn't know what Mom was for but right now? She was with Angel. An irrational flare of jealousy swept across my skin as I pulled away and looked at my Dad.

"I think I got a little lost on the way here. I was scared and...I didn't know my way back." That was such a load of crap. I could track my parents from miles away, but they didn't know that. They didn't know because they never bothered to ask, because they never told me who I was. It was like I was permanantly shrouded in some kind of secret. I wondered if I was something so horrible that they just couldn't face up to it.

Happily I thought maybe there was a ring of truth to that. I didn't really feel horrible though. I didn't really feel anything. Not the things I used to feel. I just didn't care anymore. And seeing that look on my Mother's face after I punched her into the wall? That was priceless.

"I need to know what I am, Dad...I...I'm so strong! I'm stronger than Mom and I know that she's some kind of superhero. I don't know what Angel is but I don't think it's good. What's going on? Why won't anyone ever tell me the truth? Please...tell me what I am?"

[military_boy]

Here it was the moment of truth and I wasn't sure if I was going to tell her the truth or lie. I couldn't lie, that's all we've been doing and look where it has gotten us. I let out a sigh and sat down and motioned to the chair Lexi was sitting in previously. We weren't really sure what she was but we knew she had Faith's soul and I couldn't tell her that. We were going to take care of that and make it better by killing Faith and Angelus.

"Your Mom is the Slayer, vampire Slayer. It's like predestined and only one is supposed to exist at a time, except Faith was called when your Mom died. Well she didn't stay dead obviously but Faith was called and she's a Slayer too. Now she's a vampire." I glanced up at her and wondered how much her Mother was going to hate me for telling her all of this.

"You were, are, something special we just don't know what. I think you're like your Mom, a Slayer but stronger. You were born long before you should have been and well... you aged really fast." I explained carefully to make sure she was getting it all. "You're human but you are different than other humans. You're stronger and faster like Buffy. Angel- well he is a vampire but he's... good." That sounded wrong saying it, what vampire was good?

[osborn_heiress]

I nodded at him slowly, swallowing as if this was the most startling news he'd ever just relayed to me. Wait. Angel was a vampire? Like those things that Connor and I had killed together? How could a vampire have a son? I mean, did that happen all the time? I didn't think Connor was one. His whole bullshit story about how his dad gave him fake memories and all this other crap. Had that been real? Had Angel done that to him? Angel the evil vampire with a body double? Confusing.

Of course, I should have known. I could see things, smell things, knew things that no one else could know. I didn't even think my mother smelled the dust she carried home with her every night, or hear the way Dad's heart skipped a beat everytime she walked into a room. Could she sense all of that? Could she tell that Angel didn't have a heart beat? I guess I'd just been so focused on other things I hadn't even noticed that Angel didn't have a heartbeat. Stupid Lexi. How could I not know that?

"How do you and Mom know Angel if he's a vampire? And are there lots of good vampires?"

Somehow I had the idea that one Angel was good and the other was bad. I wasn't entirely sure which one I helped tonight, but I was pretty sure it was the good Angel. I mean, he wanted to save all those kids. Then again, why would my Mother side with the bad Angel?

"Why do I have the feeling you're not telling me everything?" I asked, finally sniffling away those crocodile tears and narrowing my eyes at Daddy.

[military_boy]

I began to wonder if I was telling her too much or not enough when she narrowed her eyes at me and wiped tears from her eyes. How did she know I wasn't telling her everything? Was being intuitive part of her... powers? Great that's all I needed. A wife that loved to fight with me and a daughter that knew what I was thinking and not sharing. I was screwed, lucky thing I adored them both beyond the telling of it. I let my head fall back and let out a troubled sigh before looking back at her.

"I'm telling you everything, Lexi." I said with a bit of authority in my voice because despite the fact I was surrounded by super women with powers? I was still the Daddy. "Your Mom knows Angel's a vampire because- because they used to date once upon a time a long time ago. I met your Mom in Sunnydale while I was there working for the Initiative, which is where I work, we both fight and kill demons." I still remember the night Buffy came to me and finally told me the truth about Angel when I was hiding out in the school.

"And no there are not a lot of good vampires. Angel and I guess Hostile Seve- Spike, is good too." I said with a bit of annoyance to my voice. "Where did you Mom go with Angel, do you know? I need to get together a team and go out looking for them- damn it." I stood up and paced around the kitchen before stopping and looking at Lexi, something felt different about her. I looked at her curiously before moving over to her and looking at her a little more closely.

"You didn't get hurt did you baby?" I asked with a worried tone as I looked her over once again.

[osborn_heiress]

My mother used to date Angel? I had to hold back the laughter that wanted to bubble up out of my throat. No wonder Daddy got that angry look on his face whenever he said Angel's name, that one vein pulsing on his forehead as his eyes hardened. He was really not gonna be very happy once he'd found out that his little princess had been naughty and followed in Mom's footsteps. Not that I planned on ever letting him know about my strange attraction to the good vampire.

"I don't know where they went, I'm sorry. Don't worry, Daddy. I didn't get hurt. I made sure that she didn't hurt me. I didn't...I didn't mean to hit her so hard...." I let my voice trail off and my lower lip trembled slightly as he looked on with concern. Fuck. This was way too easy for words. It felt like I'd been sleeping for the last few months and now I was finally waking up. Now I understood what I was. I wasn't good. I wasn't some miracle child. I was something that should've never existed. I was bad. And I didn't care.

"I'm so confused." I admitted and that was mostly the truth, even if things were becoming more clear now. "There are two Angels. One is good and one is bad. Mom dated the good one, right? And what was that bright flash that made Mom act all weird? The things she was saying....Dad, she was really scaring me."