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I see you as you. You see me as the withdrawn and depressed boy of the shy corner. I fall in love, you don't. You want to see what will be. Tragedy strikes, and i try to stay with you, cheer you up. You say you love me, unlike any guy you've ever met. You've had a history, and i pity you. I love you, because your always different, and always forgiving for the stupidist things that i've done. Even when i faultered, you wished to stay. I'm sorry if i ever gave you pain. You always seem to try and destroy mine...I wish i could follow, or that you would stay. But you have a fear of growing up. A lot do. I hope your choices in life will make you happy, even if i can't play anymore parts in your story. I see you as you, because people try to change others for their own comfort, and i hate it. I see so many wrong things with this world, and unfortunatly all i can do is complain about it. I wish to hope that i'll stay your freind, i may return to your life. From what i see, and what i hear, I see things that You think is not going to be, only wishful fantasies of my own. Thiers always the far chance that love will find a way...
dedicated to Rena, the only true Love in my life
*Sigh* Have you ever had plans to go somewhere, and then everything just falls apart where it just doesn't happen, and it leaves you all depressed and out of it? I sort of feel like thats whats happening with my life. I don't make plans anymore. I can't say things are definite. I don't eat sometimes because i feel depressed. Its becoming more frequent, and i'm tired of all this. Would you wish to go on with what is happening, when all you feel is that nothing else will be as good as it was? I start to find myself questioning my own faith. I always tried to pray for everyone else but me, and now i find i'm praying for favors for me. I start to feel guilty, so i still believe their is a God. I'm starting to think that i shouldn't have people care about me, cuz it hurts them to see me like this. But unfortunately, i can't make that happen without causing even more pain. From these expierences, i ask you to learn these lessons of life:
Don't EVER think that everyone has abandoned you.
Your life doesn't stop after eighteen
Be yourself, make your own decision
Don't think that someone is gonna hate you until you talk to them
Forgiveness is the best gift you can give
Believe in yourself, and don't change you look, personality, just because someone told you to
Your loss
Your hope
Your dream
Your Life
dedicated to Rena, the only true Love in my life
*Sigh* Have you ever had plans to go somewhere, and then everything just falls apart where it just doesn't happen, and it leaves you all depressed and out of it? I sort of feel like thats whats happening with my life. I don't make plans anymore. I can't say things are definite. I don't eat sometimes because i feel depressed. Its becoming more frequent, and i'm tired of all this. Would you wish to go on with what is happening, when all you feel is that nothing else will be as good as it was? I start to find myself questioning my own faith. I always tried to pray for everyone else but me, and now i find i'm praying for favors for me. I start to feel guilty, so i still believe their is a God. I'm starting to think that i shouldn't have people care about me, cuz it hurts them to see me like this. But unfortunately, i can't make that happen without causing even more pain. From these expierences, i ask you to learn these lessons of life:
Don't EVER think that everyone has abandoned you.
Your life doesn't stop after eighteen
Be yourself, make your own decision
Don't think that someone is gonna hate you until you talk to them
Forgiveness is the best gift you can give
Believe in yourself, and don't change you look, personality, just because someone told you to
Your loss
Your hope
Your dream
Your Life