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I started this journal 2 years ago. I was just reading some of my first entries... It's so wierd.
One year ago was Neithen's wedding on SWG... there's a lot more to it then that, but yea.
So much happens, and so many things change, and so many more things are exactly the same.
I see myself stressing over the same things over and over again, and I see everything working out, and when I dig into my memory I can't even remember how things got fixed really, but I know they did because I'm here and I'm living it, and because I remember stressing over it again. The way I figure it, life will work itself out. Right now I hope it works in a particular way, there are certain things I want, but if it works out differently, the key is that it'll all work out. Maybe if things go a different path I won't be able to stress over the same things again.
Does this make any sense to anyone but me? I'm trying to be optimistic here, something I've noticed I don't really do. It's funny cuz I never though of myself as a pessimist, I honestly convinced myself I'm a happy person... but I'm not and that's a weird realization to come to.
Anyways today I go back to work after being off for the Restaurant Makeover (though I did go in for filming a couple days) and after having my wisdom teeth pulled friday morning. I'm still swollen and I still hurt, but I'll be ok or so they said. Hopefully back to my old self by Tuesday, though I don't see that happening considering it's Monday and I still want to murder the dentist.
Wow my user picture thingie is almost a year old... I think it's a nine months ish... I should change it right... get something a little more modern?
One year ago was Neithen's wedding on SWG... there's a lot more to it then that, but yea.
So much happens, and so many things change, and so many more things are exactly the same.
I see myself stressing over the same things over and over again, and I see everything working out, and when I dig into my memory I can't even remember how things got fixed really, but I know they did because I'm here and I'm living it, and because I remember stressing over it again. The way I figure it, life will work itself out. Right now I hope it works in a particular way, there are certain things I want, but if it works out differently, the key is that it'll all work out. Maybe if things go a different path I won't be able to stress over the same things again.
Does this make any sense to anyone but me? I'm trying to be optimistic here, something I've noticed I don't really do. It's funny cuz I never though of myself as a pessimist, I honestly convinced myself I'm a happy person... but I'm not and that's a weird realization to come to.
Anyways today I go back to work after being off for the Restaurant Makeover (though I did go in for filming a couple days) and after having my wisdom teeth pulled friday morning. I'm still swollen and I still hurt, but I'll be ok or so they said. Hopefully back to my old self by Tuesday, though I don't see that happening considering it's Monday and I still want to murder the dentist.
Wow my user picture thingie is almost a year old... I think it's a nine months ish... I should change it right... get something a little more modern?