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i have the worst headache right now..and i feel like i am going to throw up. i really hope i get to the doctor soon. ;-;
Think about this: Your bestfriend of 7 years tries to rape you. You drink to much & pass out on the floor. All you remember is pushing someone away..them calling your name to wake up...your boyfriend yelling..and then you in shock crying. you have no idea what just happened. your in shock crying for about 3 hours. you have to go to a hospital and have all these tests done to you while you question god about why he could let someone do such horrible things to you~ let alone have it be one of the worst betrayals, your god damn bestfriend.
You spend the next couple of weeks having to tell your closest family members and friends the humilitating & terrifying experience. you are harrassed by cops & counselors looking for answers. then you think it will finally be over soon and the bastard who tried to rape you calls your phone over and over again while telling your other friend he's going to commit suicide. you deal with all the painful questions. you deal with all the painful thoughts, and the recurring nightmares. then ur now ex-bestfriend's bestfriend is now harrassing you to stop pressing charges. but its supposed to be okay that he told the cops that you were lying. its supposed to be okay that he told the cops that you both had sex despite the hospital's tests. it's okay that he has no remorse or sympathy for what you are going threw. it's okay that he is a selfish asshole who only wants to be out of prison so he can go back to being a drunk rapist. it's okay that he is not sorry at all for backstabbing your boyfriend. it's okay that he didn't think about your feelings when he was on top of you. it's okay that he blames your other bestfriend for all of this. it's okay that he's telling everyone that you are the liar and he's the victim. it is okay that people are starting to belive it.
when are people going to start thinking of me. the overwhelming emotional pain that is killing my heart. poor steve~ he got drunk and tried to rape his bestfriend katy while she was passed out...but it's okay..because he's a good person and all and even though he says he didn't do anything wrong we don't want him to go back to prison. katy's fine..she's used to shit happening to her like this..she'll get over it...steve on the other hand...he is the victim in all this~ why should he suffer? FUCK THAT. Sorry I don't openly share my pain and I know you were only stating your oppinion, but I am only stating mine. I wish you would have talked to me about this..but I know I'm hard to get a hold of. Can you just understand how sick I am of hurting so badly while everyone seems to care only about the person who did this to me?
Think about this: Your bestfriend of 7 years tries to rape you. You drink to much & pass out on the floor. All you remember is pushing someone away..them calling your name to wake up...your boyfriend yelling..and then you in shock crying. you have no idea what just happened. your in shock crying for about 3 hours. you have to go to a hospital and have all these tests done to you while you question god about why he could let someone do such horrible things to you~ let alone have it be one of the worst betrayals, your god damn bestfriend.
You spend the next couple of weeks having to tell your closest family members and friends the humilitating & terrifying experience. you are harrassed by cops & counselors looking for answers. then you think it will finally be over soon and the bastard who tried to rape you calls your phone over and over again while telling your other friend he's going to commit suicide. you deal with all the painful questions. you deal with all the painful thoughts, and the recurring nightmares. then ur now ex-bestfriend's bestfriend is now harrassing you to stop pressing charges. but its supposed to be okay that he told the cops that you were lying. its supposed to be okay that he told the cops that you both had sex despite the hospital's tests. it's okay that he has no remorse or sympathy for what you are going threw. it's okay that he is a selfish asshole who only wants to be out of prison so he can go back to being a drunk rapist. it's okay that he is not sorry at all for backstabbing your boyfriend. it's okay that he didn't think about your feelings when he was on top of you. it's okay that he blames your other bestfriend for all of this. it's okay that he's telling everyone that you are the liar and he's the victim. it is okay that people are starting to belive it.
when are people going to start thinking of me. the overwhelming emotional pain that is killing my heart. poor steve~ he got drunk and tried to rape his bestfriend katy while she was passed out...but it's okay..because he's a good person and all and even though he says he didn't do anything wrong we don't want him to go back to prison. katy's fine..she's used to shit happening to her like this..she'll get over it...steve on the other hand...he is the victim in all this~ why should he suffer? FUCK THAT. Sorry I don't openly share my pain and I know you were only stating your oppinion, but I am only stating mine. I wish you would have talked to me about this..but I know I'm hard to get a hold of. Can you just understand how sick I am of hurting so badly while everyone seems to care only about the person who did this to me?